TW: Mentions of Suicidal Thoughts
Please don't read if that makes you uncomfortable, I want you to feel as safe as possible. But thank you for your time <3
And for those who have stayed to read;
Hi.
Been awhile. And that's not the first or last time I've said that.
I feel real shitty for continuing to promise updates soon but they hardly come, and I apologise whole heartedly for it.
I know not many people will care, as I'm sure you're mostly here for my writing rather than me, but I've been through a very dark path recently.
I've had bad times before, and depressive episodes, but these past few months have been extremely difficult for me.
I've had constant issues with myself, my eating habits, my sleeping habits, intrusive thoughts, thoughts of self harm and thinking and feeling that everything I do is just not good enough.
I've been feeling constantly unmotivated to write for my books, because I feel like the final products won't be up to anyone's standards. But, in reality, they only aren't up to my standards.
This, and a lot private issues, has lead to me feeling worse for wear. I constantly have feelings of feeling worthless, or unwanted, and I keep have thoughts of k*lling myself.
