Concept-ion

One month until the end of the year… time flies fast huh...
          	
          	This is just a personal note, maybe a rant about myself, maybe not, but I need to let something out that’s been sitting in the back of this troubled mind of mine.
          	
          	I had so many plans to revive my Wattpad account and continue my stories, but something always held me back. I’m a perfectionist, and when you mix that with overthinking… yeah, that’s one of the worst combos possible. almost on par like being a fast learner who forgets everything just as fast, pretty useless a bit, hahaha.
          	
          	Jokes aside
          	
          	I’ve always held myself to such high standards. I wanted to start/publish a new novel, revive my Wattpad, bring everything back to life… but the problem is still the same: I’m a perfectionist and an overthinker.
          	
          	If I don’t like it, I won’t post it.
          	If something looks fine, overthinking kicks in.
          	“This part needs that.”
          	“Wouldn’t it be better if it was like this?”
          	“Your old stories had art, where is it now?”
          	“Your previous works were better. What happened?”
          	
          	And then it loops.
          	And where am I now?
          	
          	0 published chapters.
          	0 published books.
          	
          	Yet I keep writing. Quietly. For myself. But what’s the point of a story if no one gets to read it?
          	
          	And still, every month I visit my account, perfectionism and overthinking pull me down again and again and again and again drowning me.
          	
          	It’s frustrating.
          	
          	I’m not even sure if I want to continue… but there’s still something inside me, clawing its way out, telling me to return and publish again.
          	
          	Should I? even if I know it's half assed? 
          	
          	I love writing, I love drawing for fun, but why am I afraid? 
          	
          	thanks for reading this small personal rant of mine hahaha... hope you all have a great day as usual!

stupidyulie

@Concept-ion yeah ill tell you when i publish tho it will take a long long time since i plan to write it completely first before publishing. looking forward to your novel!
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Concept-ion

@stupidyulie  @angeldawn09  , thanks a lot for the advices, I'll publish my novel sooner or later, gotta just make a book cover, after all i probably won't lose anything hahaha (..◜ᴗ◝..)
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Concept-ion

@stupidyulie yeah that's where I have been, wasting and rotting hahaha
          	  
          	  glad that you are still writing, and hey hit me up if you published it! ৻(  •̀ ᗜ •́  ৻)
          	  
          	  one of also the problems I'm having is that I'm really dragging the story, almost to the point i forgot the plot hahaha
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Concept-ion

One month until the end of the year… time flies fast huh...
          
          This is just a personal note, maybe a rant about myself, maybe not, but I need to let something out that’s been sitting in the back of this troubled mind of mine.
          
          I had so many plans to revive my Wattpad account and continue my stories, but something always held me back. I’m a perfectionist, and when you mix that with overthinking… yeah, that’s one of the worst combos possible. almost on par like being a fast learner who forgets everything just as fast, pretty useless a bit, hahaha.
          
          Jokes aside
          
          I’ve always held myself to such high standards. I wanted to start/publish a new novel, revive my Wattpad, bring everything back to life… but the problem is still the same: I’m a perfectionist and an overthinker.
          
          If I don’t like it, I won’t post it.
          If something looks fine, overthinking kicks in.
          “This part needs that.”
          “Wouldn’t it be better if it was like this?”
          “Your old stories had art, where is it now?”
          “Your previous works were better. What happened?”
          
          And then it loops.
          And where am I now?
          
          0 published chapters.
          0 published books.
          
          Yet I keep writing. Quietly. For myself. But what’s the point of a story if no one gets to read it?
          
          And still, every month I visit my account, perfectionism and overthinking pull me down again and again and again and again drowning me.
          
          It’s frustrating.
          
          I’m not even sure if I want to continue… but there’s still something inside me, clawing its way out, telling me to return and publish again.
          
          Should I? even if I know it's half assed? 
          
          I love writing, I love drawing for fun, but why am I afraid? 
          
          thanks for reading this small personal rant of mine hahaha... hope you all have a great day as usual!

stupidyulie

@Concept-ion yeah ill tell you when i publish tho it will take a long long time since i plan to write it completely first before publishing. looking forward to your novel!
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Concept-ion

@stupidyulie  @angeldawn09  , thanks a lot for the advices, I'll publish my novel sooner or later, gotta just make a book cover, after all i probably won't lose anything hahaha (..◜ᴗ◝..)
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Concept-ion

@stupidyulie yeah that's where I have been, wasting and rotting hahaha
            
            glad that you are still writing, and hey hit me up if you published it! ৻(  •̀ ᗜ •́  ৻)
            
            one of also the problems I'm having is that I'm really dragging the story, almost to the point i forgot the plot hahaha
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Concept-ion

Decided to get my life straight,  finally got back to writing atleast, It's amazing how just one thing can re-spark  your muse to write.

Concept-ion

@stupidyulie HAHAHAHAHA... *dies*
            
            But real... I also don't feel like even publishing them or neither even proofreading them... just ideas only ; 3 ; )
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stupidyulie

ikr! just reading a good book already inspires to write, but unfortunately, inspiration is easy come, easy go hahah *sobbing*
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