To those this my concern:
As some people are aware, I am not myself right now. I am going through a serious phase of depression and won't be "stable" for another month or so.
I will not be working on my art book until this is resolved and I am back on my feet.
In most cases, i would just draw it out then explain why. but this particular subject has struck me like a double decker bus. I don't normally talk about this kind of thing because I don't know how to explain how I'm feeling to other people, so I bottle it up and when something causes a snap, all hell breaks loose.
No one passed away in any way, it is a relationship speed bump that made my car go tumbling down a really bad hill and landed in a freaking ditch full of sharp things.
Speaking of sharp things. I have thought about cutting, just as a form of coping. I know, not the best idea, but that is just how I'm feeling.
I have been crying myself to sleep frequently, since the start of July. But it was for other reasons. Now, the crying is for the relationship bump. this bump has been bothering me because I can't fix how I am, I personally don't know how. hence why I said a month or so for fixing.
I am usually one of the most outgoing, fun, creative, caring person (according to friends), but that has changed drastically, I am no longer as happy, creative, nor fun as I used to be. I'm sure it will come back to me in due time.
I'd like to thank you all for being here for me, being the best possible people I have ever encountered in my life, and id like to thank my friends for how I am.
Thank you.
Jonika Gamez - Jonee Putnam - Wanda Chester - BabyGirlBanshee
