Hey fellow shippers especially Waanjais out there! How are you doing? I hope you're all good and safe
I heard about the MewTul engagement and I'm so happy for them, cause finally they were able to find each other. But truth be told, I don't really know what I am feeling right now. Of course I am happy for them, but as a Waanjai who is until now maybe I haven't moved on yet especially that MewGulf were the ones who made me stay in the BL world although they're not my first ship. I know I am supposed to move on already, but maybe until now it's kinda difficult for me. MG was my inspiration, I wrote a song and poem about them, my stories "Our Last Song" and "Last Song to Forever" were also written because of them.
But now, just like how Mew (from my story) feels when he abandoned his passion in music, I also didn't feel the spark any longer. I don't know if I could still continue writing the "Last Song to Forever". Actually, I already have plans about what would be the ending, the twists, the conflict, and even listed the scenes and some fillers of the side couples. But when I sat in front of the monitor, the spark wasn't there anymore. It's like I am writing using a broken pen.
No hate guys, promise I fully support MewTul and their decisions too. I am beyond happy for them, honestly. Perhaps, it's just what I feel inside. Anyways, I'm just a part of the crowd. They didn't even know I existed. All I could do is to be happy for them and support them.
That would be all. Thanks fellas and I love you sooo muchiees