oliver .

I should apologize

for falling for you
because let me assure you
it was not part of my plan

I should apologize

for hearing your voice
and seeing your eyes
and feeling your body
warm
against mine 
every night
since the first night
that I met you

I should apologize

for smiling too big
and feeling too much
and falling too hard
too fast
too much
it was a very long descent
months were spent
(but not wasted)
falling into you
but the initial trip
was hours
after you first asked
for my name

I should apologize

for being too eager
for talking too much
for missing too severely
for fighting myself
and you

I should apologize

for falling in love
and to you
for making you
fall for me
too

I should apologize

for the rest of my life
and the rest of my life
with you

So I will apologize

every morning
and every night
for the rest of ever

my lips against yours
will say "I'm not sorry"
my hand in yours
will say the same
my body
entwined with yours 
will say "I don't apologize"
"I don't intend to apologize"
"I will never apologize"
"for falling in love"
"with you" 


(ave)