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hello so uhm im back again to vent out whatever shit that has happened these past few weeks so-
im genuinely like, really exhausted with everything and to say that there's no one to comfortably rant it out to, i decided to go here instead since- barely anyone would actually visit this page and bother reading this.
so, i'll just get straight to the point. i feel damn numb with everything. i don't even know if im tired, sad, mad or just completely crazy; but one thing i know is, im mentally fucked up in the head alr. i just cant seem to think straight anymore, i cant get my shit together, i cant force myself to put in effort in anything anymore. my mind doesnt want to give up but my body does. im physically still here but im mentally out of this world. i seriously dont know what to do with life anymore. im not saying i dont appreciate it though. i appreciate that god gave me life and all but, i wish he had given it someone who deserves it more. at this point, i just regret all the things i did to others, hurting them with my words and not showing my appreciation enough. i also regret for troubling my mom every single damn time cuz she has to keep handling my dumb ass and i admit im not really a good sister to my brother at all. all i do nowadays is just spit curses at him
even if he didnt do anything wrong. i feel like no matter how many friends i have, i'll still feel so goddamn lonely and feel inferior every time im around them. i feel paranoid every time and keep thinking what would others think of me.
this may seem like your usual vent post that you see but seriously. i'm genuinely suffocating. whoever bothered to actually read all this, uhm i got nothing else left to say. i spat all the things i needed to type out and i'm glad. even if it was just one person reading this, at least i know i let out all overwhelming thoughts. dont overthink this though. im not trying to kill myself or anything. im just exhausted, that's all.
bye !