Mirror

On good days I'm  Mirror.
On bad days I'm nobody.
I'm Mirror because I'm reflect the feelings of other.
But I'm empty inside.

Stars can't shine without Darkness.

I'm not happy,
I'm just smiling.

Silence says a lot more than you think.

Too sad to cry, so I smile.

Maybe I don't cry,
but it hurts.
Maybe I won't say,
but I feel.
Maybe I won't show,
but I care.

Sometimes,
when I say,
"I'm okay!"
I want someone 
to look me in the eyes,
hug me thight and say
"I know your not."

I think I'm
going to kill myself.
Maybe not today,
or next week,
or even next year.
But I can feel it.
I will end my life,
On my own terms.

She is sad.
She is hurt.
She is dying.
She is alone.
She is lonely.
She is a mess.
She is judged.
She is ignored.
She is suicidal.
She is stressed.
She is confused.
She is fucked up.
She is depressed.
She is misunderstood.
She is tired but still living.
She is hurt but won't show it.
She is screaming but is silent.
She is in pain but still smiling.
She is me.

Depression is not a phase,
it's a disease.
It's like screaming,
when nobody can hears.
It's to be falling appart,
without anyone noticing.

Everyone think I'm such a happy person
and that I have it all together.
What they don't now is that I'm dying
on the inside.
I don't have it all together.
I'm falling appart.

Nobody notices
how hard I try to 
hold my
tears back everyday

Sometimes,
happy memories hurt
the most.

When someone ask
where do you see
 yourself in 10 years...
I hope I do the next day 
without falling appart.

Not every smile is real,
not every tear is pure.

Death is nothing,
it's life thats hard.

Usually, people think 
that I'm a strong, happy person.
But behind my smiles they 
just don't know 
how much I'm in pain and 
almost broken.

So tell them how you feel,
but it's not that easy.
Then when you hopeless,
you broken.
And when you broken
you wanna die.