BishopAM

@BishopAM Oh noo, hope your leg is doing better!! Apart from the tiredness and your leg, it seems to have been a wonderful experience to share with your friend!!! :D

@FaintOfLight 
            It was crazy and excellent, but I’m definitely not a teenager anymore. I luckily took care of myself and my friend looked out for me the entire time, otherwise I would’ve been in shambles. 
            
            I did messed up my leg in a mosh pit, though. 

I hope you enjoyed yourself! :D
            
            Having experienced my first festival a few months ago, I totally understand how you feel, it’s wonderful, yet exhausting at the same time.

@Lunar_Bandito92 You should, like I mentioned I have two straps and they've held up really well.

@BishopAM I want to get a strap for my uke 

@Lunar_Bandito92 That's true. I'm not someone who's adverses to things of a sexual nature, I just want to make sure it's actually serving the purpose I want it to.

@BishopAM don't worry if it's not perfect! I've written 2 scenes in my book, and both of them have been edited significantly since publishing them lol you can always go back and revise it if you're not happy

Awww honestly, you’re making me tear up. Reading your words here is like listening to Leave The City from the 4minute mark to the end, such a warm feeling, and a deep pride, like thanking life for letting me keep going just to discover people like you. It really touched me that sometimes you keep going because you know i will be here. That’s not strange at all! I mean, if it is, I’m proud to be strange too. Yeah, that’s right, we don’t know each other in real life, but I consider you a friend too. I know that’s probably the thing I say the most to you, sorry, but thank you.
            Yeah, I know July 5th, when I will see them, will be a memorable day! 
            Sorry if I’m being too emotional, or if my messages always come off as too soft, cute and kind but I just feel the need to express it haha. This is it, you created places and characters that feel like home, like TØP, and it means the world. :)

OMG!!!! I can’t believe it’s been a fully year since then. 
            
            I remember early on showing my fiancé some of your comments and how excited I was about someone connecting so strongly to what I had written. Sometimes I’d even just read out your comments while he cooked dinner for us and we’d talk about how we’d think you’d react to the upcoming chapter. It’s weird to think that we’ve never met, but I really do consider you a friend at this point. Strange, I know. I cannot tell you the amount of times I’ve pushed on because I knew, even if no one else read it, I wanted to at least put something out because I knew you would. That’s such a comfort when sharing your art, knowing at least one person sees it and cares about. Not just for an ego boost or for praise, but because it always makes me feel connected to you. 
            
            I’m so excited to hear you’re going to get to see them live. Obviously this band means the world to us, but seeing one of their shows is a fully different experience. I cannot overstate how much of a euphoric high you gain from it, that intense feeling of connection with everyone in the crowd and with the boys themselves. Furthermore, it’s made all the sweeter because my experience with other clikkies has always been deeply warm and kind. Everyone is so nice and so friendly. I truly hope you have the time of your life!!! 
            
            Thank you fren!!! I will keep you in my prayers as well, and do my best to write and create worlds and characters that feels like home for us. 

YEAHII I’m so happy when you’re proud of you like this!! Im soooo excited 

@FaintOfLight USUALLY IT WOULD BE BUT NOT THIS TIME!!!!! 

@BishopAM No way!!! It’s INSANE!!! The coincidence is just crazy! It’s as if everything was written from the beginning!!

@FaintOfLight ALSO, fun fact I just learned because I was looking up things related to the name "Lenore," it comes from the root words meaning LIGHT or... and here's where it's exciting.... TORCH!!!

@FaintOfLight I truly hope the same for you as well, that you're doing well and pushing through. It feels a lot like healing right now, which is exhausting and exciting all at once, and I pray you're finding your same path with that also. 
            I'll keep you updated, and I'll keep working on writing because my love for it is still very much there. 
            Love you fren!

I understand, and I’m so relieved that your thyroid is okay! I think it’s amazing that you work with neurodivergent children, you must really enjoy working with them!! Please don't rush at all with the chapters, I completely understand that your mental health is making it impossible right now. All my own problems have started resurfacing too, so I can totally sympathize with you!
            I’m glad you want to go see someone instead of just staying on medication, and I really hope you find the right person!! I'm also so happy you're having a good time with your friends!! Please know that you don’t need to worry about the chapters. I say it now and I’ll always say it: take care of yourself, that’s what matters most. Just knowing that you're doing okay, or that you're keeping your head up despite life's challenges, is amazing!! 

@FaintOfLight 
            Otherwise, the inconsistency with my posting has mostly just been mental health related and also being super busy. 
            I’m planning on going back to school and I’m planning on working with neurodivergent kids, since I currently work with kids and I always end up being the person to work directly with our neurodivergent kids. Also, I’ve been looking for a therapist that specializes in OCD, ADHD, and trauma, which has been a trip. I just don’t want to have to get on more medications if I’m being honest. And lastly, I’ve just been spending more time with friends, which has kept my schedule super packed recently since my birthday just passed. It’s definitely a blessing, but it doesn’t leave me as much time to write anymore. Sorry about that. 
            
            I appreciate you checking in and I’ll definitely write whenever I can, I just don’t know when that’ll be!! 

@BishopAM thank you 

@Lunar_Bandito92 If you want to vent about it, I'm always here to talk.

@BishopAM I hope so, too  I'm so tired of feeling like garbage