Bakaideotimaslut

So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be. The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. He does something to me, that boy. Every time. It’s his only detriment. He steps on my heart. He makes me cry. I have learned now that while those who speak about one's miseries usually hurt, those who keep silence hurt more.

Turkeh-Time

You get hug >:)
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Bakaideotimaslut

So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be. The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. He does something to me, that boy. Every time. It’s his only detriment. He steps on my heart. He makes me cry. I have learned now that while those who speak about one's miseries usually hurt, those who keep silence hurt more.

Turkeh-Time

You get hug >:)
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Bakaideotimaslut

Trigger warning 
          
          Things that set off my PTSD:
          • talking about it
          • mention of SA or r@pe
          • being touched 
          • driving past his house 
          • scarves 
          • people walking behind me 
          • random moaning or grunting 
          • whispering 
          • the woods
          • big rocks 
          • the name Ethan and Owen
          • being alone with men

xivaymocha

I kinda have the same as well!
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the_taste_of_a_liar

@Bakaideotimaslut ah i's dun wike moanin eithew
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Bakaideotimaslut

i have something to say guys..........warning!tw!!!
          I used to be good friends with my depression, saying oh I’m so depressed, or life is terrible.Depression, for me, has been a couple of different things – but the first time I felt it, I felt helpless, hopeless, and things I had never felt before. I lost myself and my will to live.Depression is like drowning. Except you can see everyone else around you breathing.I’m being murdered by own mind.If you could read my mind you’d be in tears.I wanted to talk about it. Damn it. I wanted to scream. I wanted to yell. I wanted to shout about it. But all I could do was whisper “I’m fine."Sometimes the worst place you can be is in your own head.I’m exhausted from trying to be stronger than I feel. Sleep isn’t just sleep anymore, it’s an escape.Depression is nourished by a lifetime of ungrieved and unforgiven hurts. Penelope Sweet. Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will only cause permanent psychological damage.She hurts and she cries. But you can’t see the depression in her eyes. Because she just smiles.Until you’ve had depression I don’t think you’re qualified to talk about it.Depression and I are old friends but I do not court his company.

theyluvdjames

No matter what happens to us we'll still be together, We'll die together no matter what

Darlingdiyax

@-November_King- || they aren't 19- they said they were 14 last year when i dated them.
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theyluvdjames

Bakaideotimaslut

@-November_King- yes u r and im the baka queen lol
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Bakaideotimaslut

WHO WANTS TO ZOOM!!!!!

theyluvdjames

@Bakaideotimaslut I would but, u know Caribbean parents
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Bakaideotimaslut

here is the zoom link thingy!!! :)))) Join Zoom Meeting
            https://zoom.us/j/5386072189?pwd=VXBSZDhnQTAvMEdjL0FlOE4zZXg1dz09
            
            Meeting ID: 538 607 2189
            Passcode: L2P5M7Z
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