luvyou♡

I turn 19 in a few days. I miss being a kid. I wish I wasn't working so much. I'm in a relationship, but I'm unhappy in it. I feel guilty for wanting to break up, but I don't think I can do it for much longer. I don't feel like an adult, but I behave like one, I don't get days off unless I book them off. I want a break. I wish I could walk away from this life. It's just my mother and I now, all my siblings left.
          
          I want to disappear.

I am obsessed with Bennett Curran right now, his vibe is immaculate, he makes me feel so safe :))))

I really did become unknown hella fast 

2016 me thinking I was worthless and that no one would ever love me because I was chubby and homeschooled, so that meant I obviously was unlovable??? Being super depressed and wondering if I'd make it to the next year watching me rn: ⁉️
          
          2018 me thinking I was a bad bitch who could fight anyone and would watch kid shows because I was too childish watching me rn: 
          
          2020 me drinking basically the whole year away, depressed and desperate for love and respect, losing my virginity and crying almost every night because some guy didn't like me back and was completely using me only to end up dating him at the end of the year watching me rn:  
          
          2021 me single and watching Miraculous: Tales of Ladybug and Chat Noir after my tonsillectomy, knowing that I am a bad bitch because I have grown comfortable with myself and I'm proud of my achievements even small ones and knowing that no matter what happens I will always be loved by someone even if that someone is no more than my mere self, who do be eating fatty foods before my loving diet watching me rn: ‍⬛ I lub u country boiii 

New aesthetic will be arriving 

Nobody:
          Absolutely Nobody:
          Not even Carol Baskin:
          Me: I have been diagnosed with a deadly and  incurable disease lol

Please read my stories, I miss feeling important lmaooo

Is there a book that yous want back, or that you want to see more of? 
          I'm out of the hospital now 

Chapter 1 of flirtatious is up, babes xoxo

I feel like in dying