Roses🌹

This year, I came to know that everyone's a survivor. Even an animal. Even our 3-year old puppy, Toffy.
          
          Our little puppy is a survivor of 4 major surgeries. The first one happened 2 years ago, where he suffered from kidney stones and they needed to be removed via surgeries. Being a chronic disease, it came again next year, and again next year, and again this year...all in the same pattern. Since the trauma of losing my first dog Choco 3 years ago still haunted me and it happened while I was away, I was always scared for Toffy, always paranoid that the moment I leave his side, he might leave me forever, so I was always a bodyguard to him, a person who would risk her entire life for Toffy. I couldn't even say goodbye to Choco and I was at the point of killing myself back then. 
          
          My parents and I could never replace Choco in our hearts but we wanted to be pacified, we wanted our old happiness, and that's how Toffy came home. During the first surgery, I remember it being my eighth grade exam and all the hospital staff pitying me as I sat there sleepily till 12 am. During the third surgery, I was having my tenth grade exams. I thought I was the one suffering it all, I thought I would lose Toffy too, but he survived and we, as his family, gave him the comfort he needed. I cared more about him than my exams or my own life. I never cried once, I knew he would be okay. 
          
          And he is. He's happily running around after a week of the forth surgery. I realised that he's an even greater survivor than I will ever be - he had to be operated on 4 times, thriving through mental and physical pain, much more than I ever went through. Even through all that intense pain, he pretended to be okay and never once showed his pain though we knew how much it hurt him - just like I did, throughout all these years. 
          
          Whenever I see Toffy, I see another 'me' in him, a 'me' experiencing greater pain but hiding it all - and that's how I know that he's a strong, great survivor. I love you, Toffy<3

Yet another 'proud day'!
          
          So, I went to my cousin's house during vacation time for exactly a week and by the time it was time for me to return home, my mom calls urgently and tells me that she has booked coaching classes for me. Since my best subjects are maths and computer, my mom admitted me for a JEE coaching class. But the real deal? There was a screening test that came alongside it which enabled me to compete for IIT coaching classes too.
          
          So, here comes the problem. The screening test was scheduled just one day later. The syllabus for the screening test included both ninth and tenth grade portions, the former which I had completely forgotten. And main problem? There was no time. Since I was at my cousin's house, I couldn't concentrate well. I still tried my best, memorized the tons of physics formulas from ninth. I didn't bother about checking tenth grade syllabus because I remembered it like day and night. By Saturday, I returned home, but my cousin came along. Thus, I was pretty busy at my own house too. My mom and my cousin made a bet and he said that I wouldn't be able to secure a rank in the test. I almost believed it too, having memorized only half the entire syllabus. But I believed in myself, like I always did. 
          
          And Sunday came. All I knew was that before the ranklist reaches us, there would be a message stating that we're admitted to IIT coaching, IF WE GET A GOOD RANK.
          
          Soon, that message reached me too. I secured the 28th rank out of 350+ people in total, meaning the top 8%. I had scored 175/240 with a great 72/80 in maths (whatever I attempted was right and only the two questions I left lost marks) and a pretty low 47/80 for physics. I received a scholarship of 10%. 
          
          The next morning, I asked my cousin about the bet he made. He just smiled sheepishly. Of course, he was just joking, but I had to take pride in my accomplishment :)

ABSOLUTELY THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE ~
          Our farewell party for tenth was held at 6 today and it was just awesome. The best part was the DJ, where all the lights were switched off, the music was played and even smoke was released! 
          
          I'm really gonna miss this.

My farewell party of tenth is tomorrow but I feel kind of blank (not sad exactly). Like after that meet up, most of us won't see each other ever again including my best friend who I'll call 'R' for now. Since she has coaching classes from April, we won't be able to keep meetings right. My other three friends are taking completely different streams from me (Biomaths and bio IP), while I'm one of the few girls choosing PCM computer.
          
          Yesterday a Google form had been sent to us and besides choosing our main option we also had to choose a second one in case we couldn't get the first stream. So, as much as I love maths and computer, I still hope at the depth of my heart that I might get biomaths alongside my friends ...which is almost impossible because most people do get the stream that they choose, and I'm sure I've scored enough marks to be selected to the group I chose. Still, though, I'll really miss my friends. I've been with them for six years so it's hard to imagine a class without them and their jokes.

BOARDS ARE OVER!!
          Finally, a whole year of pressure is over with, though obviously it's gonna be here in twelfth too ;-;
          Today we had maths and just like my confidence, it proved to be the easiest paper and the one I might score the most in(anything more than 97 perhaps). Afterwards, we went to my friend's house and made farewell mementos lol, it was really fun.
          My coach and teachers were very happy afterwards, encouraged and wished us well.

And just like that, the toughest exam is over... Yay! Now we've got just one more exam (maths, my favourite) and then five days later we've our farewell party! 
          
          I'm praying that I get a 100 on maths and 99 on science because I worked so hard for these two. I wish that maths exam would be easier than last board because last time was said to be very tough. Besides, I lost a lot of marks in second language thanks to insufficient time so I want to get those lost marks by scoring a 100 on maths. Social science board was tough, questions were very indirect especially MCQs. Prolly gonna score less than 97(but more than 90, perhaps)

Any tips for studying the last chapter and forth chap in social science(industries and agriculture)? I hate this shit like anything, I literally forget everything the moment I close my geography text. Why can't we go back to sixth grade geography where we studied about Earth and calamities? That, at least, was understandable and useful.
          
          I'm not going to be an industrialist or farmer, wtf am I studying this for?

I love math.
          
          XD still remembering that announcement from back on September 2022 where I said I hate it. How times change, right? Thing is, I've ALWAYS loved it. Just that when I started to lose some mere marks, my ego made me think that I hated it just so that I wouldn't have to accept the change. I don't; it's literally my favourite subject ever.

3 down, 2 more to go
          
          Fortunately science was easy enough for me, all thanks to the guide my mom bought me from which I'd practised extra questions (though they were most unlikely to come for exam) and they DID end up appearing  Especially in physics, I did pretty well, considering there was a tough question in which we had to find the time given the current is 15mA and charge is 750coulumb (Isn't it 50000 seconds? XD)

2 out, 3 more to go.
          
          
          
          Yeah I'm obviously talking about boards.