I m not crying doesn't mean I'm not hurt. 
          Tf???
          They are embarrassed. Of me. 
          They want my results to be like others.  
          
          I will become others then...
          Like ...idk what to say .
          
          They are not talking to me. Im just listening. 
          Im sorry. 
          
          I tried..?
          Not my fault I was bullied and they asked me come out of hostel and coaching mid session. 
          I mean I said I'll stay and fight, they begged me to come out of the place to not let my physical health deteriorate. 
          My mental was begoneeee after it . Knowing how I'm dealing with it.  
          Hell even dealt with it yesterday they don't know. 
          Even if I tell them , they use the info against me.  Kinda shake hands with the circumstances that would attack me.  Me being the only defender for myself. Oh ho ho.  
          Brother I'm just...gone ...
          Im simply trying to survive trying not to die. 

Begins ≠ Youth spoiler
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          Street says min cein died.  
          
          Ain't watching it until next year bruh ‍♀️

️ “Come back to me” -  Single by RM (BTS) out May 10th
          
          ️ “Right place wrong person” - Album by RM ( BTS ) out May 24th
          check that out 

 why do I feel so old lol . 
          
          Also the voices in my head might kill me if I keep music away from my ears for a day. 
          
          Wtf am I even saying.
          Lol 
          This is my ranting space I guess.
          
          But I can do that on ig too.  Noone knows me or forgot me .  But ig is not a safe space tho . I only post fan  stuff and positive stuff . and wayyy too many people know me. 
          
          Twt is strictly for army activities purposes.
          
          I stopped posting wtsp status rant . Too many adults {judgemental restrictive downplaying opinionated ones )  know me . I'm not comfortable with them knowing that I feel horribly stupid for loving someone lol . That'd be so hazbskbxzwksakz
          My family's reputation would go down in drain ( when have I ever even made it good , I could never make anyone proud of me , one day I will) 
          
          Yt comments - idk I don't got time for lurking in YouTube comfort side .
          
          Weverse? Hmm maybe..
          But either I will be annoyingly spammed with bot message or will end up deleting it again out of anxiety . 
          I wanna tell Tannies about my days like I used to . 
          
          Diary? I still write . I just needed a space to write without thinking and it's not how I pen down stuff in my head .
          
          Well... here's all options I had and why I don't write my sh-t anywhere else 

HYYH storyline adaptation drama has been released. 
          Begins ≠ youth 
          
          I really really really like how hyyh connects with us but the drama is completely a narration of a story. So it's different 
          The coming together of a group of youth from different backgrounds.
          Got to see the hyyh revive again tho!
          And the actors studied Tannies so well , they even have similar mannerisms. 
          
          

I wanna be a human and create some art

I'm wounded deeply myself, but ironically I want to study to heal people . 
          I don't trust people but I want to trust them and them to trust me.  
          Im going to try my best , this time and always, forever. 
          I'll not let anyone be as hurt as me under my care , physically and mentally. At least I'll do the best possible for them.

Bleughh I'm gonna throw up.  
          
          
          I always aid to injuries, whether physical or emotional of people and in return get hurt for it.  I feel like throwing up.  I'm feeling sick to my guts.  Im stupid , stupidest human in this world. I always trust and care people with my head and heart .
          Eeeee bleuwghh 
          
          Yuk I'm so disgusting

I'm doing better in terms of my physical health . 
          I have exam in 5 days , a very significant one in which if I pass I can get into medical College .
          It was a hard year for me through and through . 
          Let's see where I go

My pulmonary health is consistently deteriorating. It's quite complex. 
          If I go away , if u ever find my account I'd like to tell that I learnt many new things here.  
          I'm glad I came here .
          
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