Angsty_SnekProtec

Sooo I did my callback!!!
          
          It was terrifying because people I hate got them too but I got a really good group!
          
          I think we all worked really well together too! 
          
          AND
          
          I got to try out being two of the four mains and we were the first group to start setting up our scene!
          
          I also got to talk to one of my old, closest friends normally again and I'm really happy Hehe.
          
          Cast list should be out tomorrow and even if I don't get it, I'm proud of myself for getting a call back and there's always next year!!

Guess who got a call back for a school play gays.
          
          Twas me >:)

October 7th 2022 >:))))

Right idk what's wrong with me and I'm worried lol
          
          All I did today was play genshin impact, watch YouTube and be sad and idk why.
          
          Normally I'd be oht every day of the week but I just feel so drained.
          
          Literally took me an hour to convince myself I deserved to shower and feel go about myself.
          
          Anyone got any idea why this is happening to me??

As I'm sure you will heard, Technoblade passed away recently and the video was posted by his family. 
          His dad and his dog were in the video.
          
          Honestly I am distraught and heartbroken because I had my heart set on him beating it and obviously he didn't...
          But I am not going to let this  be a whole negative even though it is negative.
          
          We can think about the positives he brought into this world. 
          All of the people he helped and all the things he did to make everyone smile around him. All of the friends made and I will remember him as the person who taught me to be myself and to be different no matter who or what tried to stop me.
          
          So thank you Alex thank you for giving people giving people like me the courage to be themselves.
          In giving support to those in need of it.
          Giving us a platform to stand on as a community.
          
          I'm hopefully going to be getting some merchandise soon but if not then but  then I guess it's time to save up myself.
          
          My condolences to his friends and family and into anybody else greatly affected by this like me.
           I hope you fly high and challenging God or whatever is up there.
          
          Rest in peace blood god..
          
          You did good
          
          Fly high with ghostbur <3 o7

Do you ever get bored and watch videos of people fighting on reddit?
          
          Just me? Oh well-
          
          But I honestly like had to put my phone down because two videos made my blood boil-
          
          Tw// mentions of blood and beatings
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          So the first one was absolutely disgusting and made me angry cuz this girl looked so helpless. They stole her stuff and then repeatedly kicked her in the head till she bled.
          
          I swear I just wanted to fucking jump into the video and beat the shit out of the kids that beat her it made me so mad.
          
          
          This other one, the girl looked so defeated at the beginning. She was letting the other girl spit on her and call her horrible things and then by the end of the video, it looked like she passed out..
          
          
          
          
          Why are we so fucked up?? 
          
          
          I think I'm so upset because something similar (though thankfully not on the same scale) happened to a close friend of mine.
          
          Idk man just makes me fucking angry
          
          Sorry for this if it upsets anyone-

How do I stop myself from crying? 
          
          Normally I ring my boyfriend but he's busy rn and I really need a distraction.
          
          My headphones are somewhere in my blazer and I can't reach them.
          
          Any ideas?

How do I fall asleep lol
          
          Been trying since 12am and it's 2:30am now
          
          I've tried YouTube vids, turning phone off and have resorted to listening to to sad songs to cry and wear myself out. 
          
          Help I need to be up early tomorrow-

Tw//suicide
          
          
          
          
          
          I honestly don't know what to do. Someone on a discord server for a collab account on tik tok just said they were going to kill themselves and now they aren't answering anyone.
          
          The eret of the collab feels terrible and i feel shitty that I couldn't help.
          
          What do I do? Do I call the person? Text them more?

I feel like Ive seen you on mha fics but idk