@Andra_Chesulloth you have now idea how you saying this helped me because I feel the same way. I have also been stuck in a dark place and I have tried to get out of it. But me being afraid to show people that I need help, and not wanting people to make fun of me for my mental issues it makes my mind go to places it shouldn't. I honestly completely understand what you are going through. I only have a few people that I even talk with about my issues, because of trust problems...I am afraid I will tell them what is going on and they will leave. Because it has happened before. I have just been trying to do the same thing, but I have just been drowning in my own mind, I have been struggling with these problems for a couple years now, and if I am being honest I don't know how I have made it this long. If it wasn't for one of my family members. I probably wouldn't be here today. Which I am honestly grateful for even if it's hard! I am glad you a taking care of yourself and making sure you are fine. Because a lot of times people are so focused on making sure everyone else is happy, that they forget about themselves! I have honestly had this problem and still do. I am not as perfect as everyone thinks!
Will be praying for you!
Love,
Your fan!