Aileedales

Hey, ladies. I’d like to apologize for not being able to upload a new chapter of Forever Always Blue this week. I’m not sure if there’s going to be a new chapter this coming week either. It’s been a week since I lost one of my cats. After all that’s happened, this past week has been rough. I wasn’t able to work either. I’m just going through a tough time. It’s just too much. I keep on spiraling. Honestly, I’m in a dark place right now. I’m well aware of that and I’m trying to move past it. I try but I feel like I’m failing royally all the time. My chest hurts. I take pain killers. I’m not getting much sleep. My mind is foggy. I stopped writing on my journal because if I did it will make it real. Despite that, at least I was able to work on Friday for a quarter of the day. At least I’m finally eating again so my parents will stop worrying about me now. 
          	
          	I have one cat left and every time I cry, he would meow at me, head bunt me, plop in front of me, and then offer me his belly. He would give me soft little bites when I’m sobbing loudly and meows almost like he’s in distress. I feel bad so I try to calm myself down.
          	
          	I just want everything to be okay. There are brief moments where I do feel okay and normal, but there’s always this ache and restlessness in my heart. I’ve been bitter and angry. I’ve blamed my sister’s boyfriend. Maybe I still do. He already said he was sorry, but I still hate him. I hate him and I feel bad about it. I’ve been bitter and then angry again, especially when I hear him snoring and sleeping soundly at night while I couldn’t even sleep a wink. I know these are negative feelings and I shouldn’t allow them to drown me in but I guess I’m the worse human there is because I can’t. These past few days, I’ve seen the ugly sides of myself I had no idea I had in me. Sometimes, I convince myself it’s just grief. Sometimes, I think it’s just because I’m just a terrible human being. I hate this. I just want to feel okay. 
          	
          	

kikipee

@Aileedales You're not the worst human, take it easy on yourself and allow yourself to grief. May you find healing and comfort. xxx
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saragrady0

@Aileedales sorry for your loss. They are part of the family and you will always miss them buy it does get easier in time xxx
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lottyseidu

@Aileedales please take it easy. A day at a time. I know it's hard. May your memories comfort you. Sending hugs
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Aileedales

Hey, ladies. I’d like to apologize for not being able to upload a new chapter of Forever Always Blue this week. I’m not sure if there’s going to be a new chapter this coming week either. It’s been a week since I lost one of my cats. After all that’s happened, this past week has been rough. I wasn’t able to work either. I’m just going through a tough time. It’s just too much. I keep on spiraling. Honestly, I’m in a dark place right now. I’m well aware of that and I’m trying to move past it. I try but I feel like I’m failing royally all the time. My chest hurts. I take pain killers. I’m not getting much sleep. My mind is foggy. I stopped writing on my journal because if I did it will make it real. Despite that, at least I was able to work on Friday for a quarter of the day. At least I’m finally eating again so my parents will stop worrying about me now. 
          
          I have one cat left and every time I cry, he would meow at me, head bunt me, plop in front of me, and then offer me his belly. He would give me soft little bites when I’m sobbing loudly and meows almost like he’s in distress. I feel bad so I try to calm myself down.
          
          I just want everything to be okay. There are brief moments where I do feel okay and normal, but there’s always this ache and restlessness in my heart. I’ve been bitter and angry. I’ve blamed my sister’s boyfriend. Maybe I still do. He already said he was sorry, but I still hate him. I hate him and I feel bad about it. I’ve been bitter and then angry again, especially when I hear him snoring and sleeping soundly at night while I couldn’t even sleep a wink. I know these are negative feelings and I shouldn’t allow them to drown me in but I guess I’m the worse human there is because I can’t. These past few days, I’ve seen the ugly sides of myself I had no idea I had in me. Sometimes, I convince myself it’s just grief. Sometimes, I think it’s just because I’m just a terrible human being. I hate this. I just want to feel okay. 
          
          

kikipee

@Aileedales You're not the worst human, take it easy on yourself and allow yourself to grief. May you find healing and comfort. xxx
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saragrady0

@Aileedales sorry for your loss. They are part of the family and you will always miss them buy it does get easier in time xxx
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lottyseidu

@Aileedales please take it easy. A day at a time. I know it's hard. May your memories comfort you. Sending hugs
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Aileedales

Hey, ladies. I try to keep my page positive, but I don't know how else I can cope with this. I guess I just want to read some kind words that will help me process what I'm going through.
          I just lost my cat in an accident. I don't want to talk about it in detail because it's fresh and it hurts and it's just going to make me sob even harder. All I know is my heart aches so much I think I could die. Please, tell me everything’s going to be okay. 

AishaforthePresident

@Aileedales hi, you can message me whenever you feel low and alone. Ive had three pets before.
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lottyseidu

@Aileedales I am so sorry about your cat. It will take a while. May your memories be cherished in your heart
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Aileedales

@cynthical thank you. I really hope so. I have no words. I just have all this pain and don’t know how much more I can take. 
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Aileedales

Hi, ladies! Just a little life update. I’m recovering from the flu. I had some plans this week including uploading a new chapter, but my sister brought home a virus along with the bacon. lol. I’m trying so hard to see things in a positive light, so at least I’m recovering now, right? I’m going to write the next chapter of Forever Always Blue as soon as I can! 
          
          XOXO,
          Ailee 

Aileedales

@poojamanish thank you! See you in the next chapter 
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poojamanish

 Yaay cant wait to read!!! Feel better ❤️❤️
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Aileedales

Hey, ladies! Just an update on the very first chapter of FOREVER ALWAYS BLUE. First chapter will be updated within the week (hopefully it’s up by Tuesday or Wednesday!). I had some stuff I had to deal with and I’m a little overwhelmed. See you soon!
          
          XOXO,
          Ailyn

joannestokley

@Aileedales I can't wait.  Thank you, Author.
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Belle0ikbel

@ Aileedales  excitedly waiting ❤❤
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Aileedales

Hey, ladies! Just a little update on Someone Like Her. I know I said last chapter will be uploaded by the end of the week, but I came down with a fever and trying to rest up so hardddd because I don’t want to miss work. Anyway, I’m going to write the chapter as soon as I can. Take care!
          
          XOXO,  
          Ailee

Aileedales

@OkaChanHime thank you so soooo much. This makes me so happyyyyyy 
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OkaChanHime

Looking forward @Aileedales  to all your work. Ive read them and Im so happy always after reading them. More power to you!
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Aileedales

@ilonaandreearadu thank you so much. You just made my week! 
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MridhunaBaiju

I was hoping that you will write Chandra's story too. With overprotective brothers around it will be fun and crazy to find her love. 

Aileedales

@MridhunaBaiju Chandra is definitely going to have a story/book of her own in the near future! I mean right? I’m getting excited just thinking about her story. lol 
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Aileedales

Hey, ladies. Sorry, this isn't a chapter update. I'd like to make an important announcement though. Since we're one chapter away from concluding Someone Like Her (been busy the past week but will update by the end of this week) I'd like you to know that I'm publishing a book here on wattpad as a way to give Baby Blue Series a blue, glittery wrapping with a beautiful bow and everything! And of course, to thank every single one you for reading and staying with me all this time. 
          
          The book is going to have all you favorite male leads/female leads in it, from Book 1 through Book 5. We're going to have a little sneak peek into their happy endings! I'm so excited to revisit every single character. Hopefully, you are too.

Aileedales

The universe really has this sick-ass humor. I just got rejected by a guy and ‘busy woman’ is the first track off of Sabrina’s album (the deluxe version) that I first listened to today. So, I don’t know, I’m just going to twerk and cry? 

Princess_Enikuomehin

@Aileedales done with the exams but now I'm preparing for another. Sorry for the late reply though.
            
            For the song recommendation, maybe anything that would have probably lifted your spirit at that time. Don't know I'm no expert on music.
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Aileedales

@Princess_Enikuomehin p.s. any song recommendations? 
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Aileedales

@Princess_Enikuomehin Thank you. It’s definitely a consolation. Ethan’s surely going to have a book of his own in the near future. 
            
            Good luck on your exams! 
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Yeonghui94

I love love and love your work. 
          I have a request tho!
          Please write Ethan's story of finding his one and only
          I know it's second gen but I think we need a time fast forward 
          Pretty please!
           Thanks for your time and consideration

Aileedales

Hi @Yeonghi94! Thank you so much! I’m so happy you like Ethan Forester. :) Ethan will definitely have a story of his own in a future book series so I guess request granted(?) Anyway, thank you so sooooo much reading. It’s means a lot! 
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Aileedales

Hi, Ladies! Just wanted to check in on you. Been a while but I’m back, soooo hi ! How was your 2024? If you’re going to sum it up in THREE WORDS, what would it be? Any New Year’s resolution? I’ll go first !
          
          2024: GLAD. IT’S. OVER. 
          2025 Resolution: Live in the moment (stop overthinking about tomorrow!)

Aileedales

@myauthorname lol. Yasssss on the self care! I should add that to my New Year’s resolution too! 
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myauthorname

Haha this could be fun. Let’s seeeee
            
            2024: LEARNED A LOT
            2025: focus on self care! 
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