You're the message I shouldn't open,
Yet I do every single time,
Even though it's empty,
Like a bell with no chime,
You're the song I pretend not to hear when it plays,
Yet here I am, humming it under my breath for days,
You're the storm in my chest, with no forecast to warn,
You're the source of my heartache, and the reason I'm torn,
I tell myself you're poison, yet I keep sipping slow,
Burnt tongue, blurred lines, how far can this can go?
You're the blood I swallow everytime I bleed,
And the unwelcoming room I enter, and fail to read,
I delete your name, but everyday my fingers still type it,
Blocked your number, but my other phone dials it,
When I want to relax cause I'm tired and stressed,
I proceed to scroll through your pictures like a stalker that's obsessed,
You're my midlife crisis and my 3 a.m sin,
I lock you out the door, and still beg you to come in,
You're the text I shouldn't send — the one I write anyway,
The "what if" I carry like loose change that I'm unable to throw away,
You're bad for me,
I guess that's the whole theme,
You're that scary nightmare,
Disguised as some lucid dream,
You're that pool full of rancid liquor,
Yet I still dive,
Like that near-death moment,
That makes me feel alive,
You're the bad place I should have never been,
See how many wars I lose, just to let you win,
I should want peace, yet I put out my hand into the fire,
Forever yearning you my chaos, and my bad desire,
You're not good, you're not right neither are you kind,
But there's this intoxicating thing about you, that's been unleashed in my mind,
I had promised I was done with you, when I wrote 'the end'
But who knew I'd still desire the presence of my bad friend?
And that I'd always battle with longing and regret?
And the worst part of leaving you, is that I haven't yet.
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Original Poem By Me!
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