there is always a quiet sadness in my heart. often, it sits dormant inside of me, awaiting a moment to remind me of its’ existence. thoughtlessly, i wander around searching for my next conquest, praying for a way to relieve the aching in my chest. it goes away, with a compliment from a stranger, discovering a new restaurant to associate myself with, or updating my outdated wardrobe with pieces of clothing linked with the seasons. nonetheless, i am more excited for my future than my existence in this period, looking forward to my stability, a house full of children marked in my genetic code, remarkable findings in my career. the focus of my future is what keeps me, alive, wanting more, needing to see this mundane life thoroughly.
posted this on my tumblr.