11Techou11
I’m actually on wattpad *disbelief* (my younger brother got wattpad now (same age I did, 11) so I’m back (whenever I’m at my dads house) )
11Techou11
jaeeisnot_here
Checking in are you doing okay???
11Techou11
@icryincorners :( not really. My mother told me she doesn’t like my therapist (my therapist doesn’t like her either) so she hasn’t been taking me to my appointments
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Imma pass out :}
i_have_holy_water
hii i saw you replied to my comments in some of my old comments from 2 years ago and i wanted to say youre so nice!!! also i hope everythings going well for you, and even if not, i wish you the best in everything
11Techou11
Omg… I’m here *disbelief*
11Techou11
@icryincorners sorry I didn’t see this earlier but thank you and you don’t sound rude at all. I think I needed to read this to be honest because my mom tells me that I’m playing victim and that what she does is completely normal and I guess I kinda started believing her and felt guilty. And lol my mental and physical health are both shitty (for example, I found out I had iron deficiency at the hospital and my mom said not to speak it over myself.) (she did the same thing when we found out I had mdd at the same visit). Honestly, I kinda feel bad for her, I mean, if your religion psychosis is so bad that you feel your child their possessed when they try to tell you about their auditorial hallucinations, then you must judge yourself a lot.
jaeeisnot_here
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@11Techou11 how I need to point out that I finally broke down crying after reading that for a good 20 minutes Sorry ive just never heard anyone go through anything like that & I'm not really those therapist-kinds of people so I don't know what to really say,, literally sounds like shit there. I wish you best!! (I'm not good with words but Im starting to really worry about your mental and physical health right now holy shit what kind of "mom" is that) ((¡¡Its fine!! Everyone needs to vent their feelings at some point to feel understood and feel acknowledged about what they're going through)) sorry if I sound rude or anything i haven't slept in about 3 days and I don't know what my thought process is right now I feel dazed///
SakuraZenkai
i hope your ok :D
11Techou11
@SakuraZenkai omg thank you Sorry it’s been a while. A lot has been going on. I called cps on my moms abusive ass (no she was like abusive abusive, and she had religion psychosis so whenever we did something she didn’t like or didn’t agree with she would beat us and tell us we were possessed or devil collaborators) and cps didn’t do squat so I still live with my mom. I’m able to go to my dad’s house Sunday afternoons to Wednesday afternoons for this summer though so WHOOP WHOOP. I’m just really tired lowkey cause I’m struggling with hallucinations and bpd (auditorial hallucinations and really realistic visual ones, for the bpd, my therapist thinks I have it because of the fact that my memories are in 3rd person and whenever I feel something, I feel intense physical pain) but I’m too afraid to tell her cause at first she’ll tell me that I don’t have or that I’m lying or that I’m faking and when I get formally diagnosed she’ll say I’m manipulating everyone. But yeah that’s my life right now.
11Techou11
Alright so uh… I kinda got influenza A right now… and because of my iron deficiency breathing feels impossible (I’m blaming my weak ass immune system and the kids at school who gave it to me) (I had lice just before this cause of them mfers and I did not want bugs anywhere near my iPad which is the reason I haven’t written any chapters) but uh…. Life sucks :)
ibukli
I’m so sorry to hear that, I hope you feel better soon. Don’t push yourself too much, your recovery is way more important pookie. Also, I really hate kids smh, they should be absorbed into the pits of hell. *-*