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we got drunk and admitted to each other how we love each other but that its an open secret till i get there
          
          

ITS NOT NORMAL HOW MUCH I WANNA RIDE

buraya ufak bi anı bırakmak istiyorum
          
          götü kalkık kadın düşmanı piç kardeşim idolü babasının yanında götten sıkmaca oynarken “baba ciao ispanyolca” dedi hayır levent italyanca dedim. öyle mi dedi sonra toparlamak için “görüşürüz demek” dedi gerizekalı olduğu için ben de “merhaba demek” dedim. bok gibi hissetti babamın yanında çift geçirince hemen telefonunu açtı beni hatalı çıkarmak için googleladı sonra ezik gibi telefonunu kapatıp sustu asbhsdkbdwkdjndkjwdd böyle üzerim

today i will try manifesting methods
          
          but beside that. i can officially declare that we are in love! he loves me so much. he thinks im beautiful and he quite literally says it to me at every opportunity he gets. he says im so cute. he talks about having met my mom.  he says he loves my name. he said the other day that he wants to spoil me. he has a lot to learn from me. im brave. i deserve the best. im pretty. im hot. im smart. im talented. im the most significant thing in his life. i blew him a kiss once and he smiled so hugely. he says hes so thankful and feel so cared for when i notice how he is feeling and tell him to care for himself. i always call out his name and say it even when theres no reason to and it makes him feel good that i love his name. he gets so happy when i send him a picture of him that he finds unflattering but compliment all the way up to the skies above. he loves listening to stories from my life. he wants to introduce me to his friends and family. he truly loves me. and i am so happy. i won

i cant believe it workedd

When I tell people I love about how I get when im crossed, do they simply think they are exempt from the same treatment when they cross me?

am i still very insecure and trying to fool everyone
          why havent i stopped feeling so sad
          its not a big deal
          its just i was a little annoying
          its not entirely my fault either he could have just said something he didnt 
          why doesnt anybody say anything to me??? no one does it
          and it is rightful for me to assume later that when they say “no i dont hate you” that its just them not telling that theyre annoyed or pissed again and saying that instead to cover up for whatever reason
          hes attracted to “girls who seem like trouble” anyway
          which is not what i am and i dont want that to be the standard that seems to be fitting me
          im not trouble
          i can whine as much as i want i wasnt pretending to be so sad to get attention i was sad and those were my real thoughts i said ok im done i did it to be pampered because it wasnt possible for me to tell if what he was showing me was patience or tolerance because no one says anything ever 
          i knew this was gonna be a sad day i felt it from the start
          everything was just so sad

I cant believe i hd the audacity to….. make fanart of US and then SEND IT to HIM

I will ride that

i told you not to look