@-wiltedflower- yeah, ive changed real names and usernames a billion times. i tried looking for myself on your page but you must have deleted the messages i left, again i can't really shake entirely what happened but i was 11 at the time so it was probably just me being immature, i was going through too much at that time i probably behaved rashly, thanks for everything and i wish you nothing but the best, im sorry for the bother/confusion I just felt like after four/five years I'd pop in, it's fine if you don't remember i really don't mind im just glad you're out there somewhere