-kseulra

Damn so.. im back on this app?????? 

-kseulra

Hey guys! So umm just wanted to notify you guys that my account's gonna be dead for awhile and i would probably check once a month(?) So i humbly apologise that im putting all books on hiatus until my writer's block disappear (or until im mentally stable enough to start writing again.) Take care everyone!! ❤
          
          x irah

Supreme_Wolfie197

Awww take your time also take care of yourself too and it's okayjust make sure to take good care of yourself that's important 
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-kseulra

At times like this, I sort of wished I had amnesia and forget about everything and everyone 

Supreme_Wolfie197

@-kseulra awww hope you're going to be okay and no problem❤️I would like to take my time to ask someone if their okay
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-kseulra

@Supreme_Wolfie197 @Iffah0906 just emotionally drained I guess.. but thank you for taking your time to ask how I was :') ❤
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Supreme_Wolfie197

Are you okay????why you want to forget about all of this??
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-kseulra

Wrote all the things i wish I could have the courage to tell that special someone,, through a rap song that I wrote....
          So I'm just going to share this here :')
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          The ringing is on repeat
          I check my phone
          But I know
          His name that I can't speak
          isn't the one that's messaging me
          We made a deal
          Never to text each other
          Promise must be sealed
          But lately I couldn't sleep well
          And all these things I couldn't tell
          him..
          It keeps occuring
          Migraines are lurking
          Why can't I say?
          Maybe I'm upset that one day he'll get bored
          Maybe that's the reason our texting's on hold
          I'm just afraid he won't love me no more
          All these thoughts keep knocking me to the floor
          Why did they say love is an open door
          No it's war
          A battlefield with my brain and my heart
          Telling myself that i need it sort out
          But I can't tell if it's true, if it's not
          I'm just so anxious of what he might think
          Would he still want me if he knew all these things
          I've been so cautious not to get attached
          Yet I keep checking if he texted me back
          Am I obsessed? Tell me I'm not
          I wished he yelled at me last time that we fought
          Sometimes I need reassurance
          They say people get mad cause they care
          It's so unfair
          Whenever he says "I love you"
          I'd bail
          I'm just so scared
          Saying the love word means that you would stay
          Promising something that you may not keep
          Cause last time someone said that, I cried in my sleep
          Haunted by memories that's so distant yet near
          I want you close but our future's unclear
          Tell me please
          Am I sinner or am I a saint?
          Wanting to love him yet breaking him, still
          No, I'm not using him as a rebound
          Cause he is the reason I'm up when I'm down
          He's not some prize that i magically won
          He is man that broke down my walls
          And one day I promise to give him my all
          And tell me "I love you" with all my heart