-fischll

CHAPTER 13 OUT NOWW SORRY FOR THE WAIT N TY FOR 6K READSSS I feel a little better whenever I update my work after being away for a while
          	
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-fischll

sorry for the wait but TRUST you will be fed with both GREED and STARGIRL like it’s gonna be a feast with greedy and a luxury meal with stargirl im really struggling with writing smut rn bcs its gonna be my first reallll smut and im like hella nervous bcs its not gonna be as good as the yum ao3 and tumblr fics but excited to see reactions and feedback nonetheless ALSO FREAKTOBERRR AHH releasing smut for the first time on this special occasion as an avid kinktober consumer!!!

-fischll

@iLoveEnaShinonomeee AHH TYSM UR SO KINDD im just scared of writing smut lol
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-fischll

@vien_yang ITS fischll I haven’t uploaded anything except for my kinktober smut tho here’s the link!! https://archiveofourown.org/users/fischll
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vien_yang

@-fischll I CAN'T FIND YOUR AO3, CAN YOU SEND LINK
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so um SURPRISE 4 MONTHS LATER STARGIRL IS BACK AND BETTER!! The last few chapters were shitty and not the best so now I’m making better chapters with a clear plot in mind there was a timeskip and it makes more sense now the next chapter will have EVERYTHING u guys have been yearning for and the Aqua smut is closer than we realise!
          
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-fischll

im having major writers block or js life block
          
          ik I have stuff to do but I can’t do it but at the same time do I rlly have stuff to do?? This is probably why my writing hasn’t been making sense lately like it doesn’t register in my brain but people read it just fine so idk
          Also am I actually good at writing? I’ve been doing it for as long as I can remember but it’s so far removed from my real life and what I had wanted to pursue that it doesn’t feel like I could do? I think this is a major problem stemming from having multiple internet personalities big or small, like I have a platform on a lot of apps where I showcase different aspects of myself like my writing, my face, my personality, my makeup, my art. This has ultimately led to me being so far removed from myself to the point where I don’t really know what I am. Existential crisis is happening but it always has been. This is also the result of not doing well academically for the past 3 years, I’ve felt like everything I do is so insignificant and pointless but at the same time I want to stop feeling like this. Ever since 2020 I haven’t been myself but at the same time I’m more myself than I’ve ever been? 
          
          AGGGHHH IDK maybe I’ve just become really lazy and complacent. 
          
          This is just a little rant I usually do here because I don’t have anyone I can express myself to. I have friends but do I really? Over the years I’ve become someone with barely any experience with friends to someone with a lot of them and of course I’m grateful but I feel as though every interaction with them is surface level and superficial. Is this what friendship is supposed to be? Is the thing I wanted so badly as a child really this…mid? AGHH IDK I say idk but I really do know. 
          
          I’ll end this before I get into another tangent. I have 600 followers now omg yay 13 year old me would be happy!!