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Obsessing over Bendy and the Dark Revival rn. It's almost 3am. I should be in bed.

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I know I don't use this account anymore, or any account for that matter, but anyway... I'm out of the abusive situation I was in and I'm much better now y'all.

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@HeliatroCipher It's actually been a little over 4 months I just realized 4 days ago that I still have a Wattpad and the people of Wattpad haven't heard from me since January.
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HeliatroCipher

Congrats on leaving! I hope all goes well moving forward
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MurielNocturnaFan

I’m so happy for you!! *hugs you *
            I’m glad you’re okay :3
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So my mom's visiting her sister in Kentucky for Thanksgiving, and tommorow I'm going to to mundane things like laundry and dishes. Why? Because I know I can do these things without being insulted. Yup. Gonna drink coffee in the morning, eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner as well as a snack without feeling guilty because there's no one to call me fat. I'll probably also take a walk. Draw a bit too. Yup. Gonna do the things I want to do but with the bonus of not being yelled at or someone being suspicious of me for being healthy for once or be insulted. I'm also going to go to bed at a decent time and get 8 hours of sleep. Maybe sleep in if I feel like I need more.

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This is just what she does. Make contradictory statements and then blame my dad for giving me a poor self image.
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Yes, I know most of these things contradict each other.
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I just realized how sad my reality is right now. And for the few people following this blog, yeah... So my mom will call me lazy when I try to do laundry. Like she thinks I've purposely don't do my laundry. I work now and when I am home, she's doing her laundry. Or it's my dad doing laundry. Same goes for washing dishes. Not to mention she'll say that I'm turning into a puffball (her way of saying fat) whenever I eat, but gets mad when I tell her I'm not hungry. I'm 19, and she thinks that makes me a 5 year old who can be kicked out for still living at home legally. And because I'm not working, I can give myself a little bit of a break and practice self care. My mom gets suspicious of me whenever I tell her I want to take a walk (I have to tell her because that's her rule) and she'll immediately think I'm gonna do something illegal and keep me inside, but not even 5 minutes later I'll be eating a roster vegetable cracker and she'll tell at me about how I should lay off the junk food because I'm turning into a puffball.
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