Sky

@beyondeverafter  I still log on till this day in hopes to see you coming back, lovely. I can't wait to talk to you again. I'm still planning to drive up to have tea and watch horror films. x

I see your profile and tears form in my eyes.
          It has been a while and a half, but I have not left you; not now, not ever.
          I remember way back when, late nights and all your helpless cries.
          I have not forgotten you, I know all your endeavours. 
          
          My heart fills with wonder and my eyes fill with a joy less seen.
          Those nights were so awful you cried to sleep every night.
          When exhaustion overcame your body and death would make you keen.
          But now you rise up every time, and make it to great heights.
          
          Remember those nights we would stay up gasping to breathe?
          And all those days you told me you couldn't do it anymore.
          And you and I, we both learned to be awfully careful where we tread.
          Every passing moment, we became even more tiredly sore.
          
          Those nights you wanted nothing more than a sweet release of death.
          And when you cut, and your blood was the only thing you craved.
          Now you lay content with every breath.
          You have made it through the storm; the world you have braved.
          
          And I remember, one final thing before I go.
          Remember when you used to call yourself damaged?
          When you believed you deserved so much pain?
          But the reality was, you helped so many people, and now you reap what you sow.
          And now you know nothing you ever said was a baggage.
          And perhaps sometimes you still feel it, but darling you are not insane.
          
          And my darling, my love, my baby;
          
          Every night I wished, every day I hoped.
          That I would be enough to guide you to this day.
          And you did, you've done it so well; you've coped.
          So on this one fine day, this one day I can finally say;
          
          Though you've been through so much shit;
          Congratulations, Skyler, you've made it. x

Seeing this account again makes me very sad, all the depressing things posted on here hurt my heart so much. For anyone on here listening I just want you to know that I am writing to you from a wonderful place. For many that may not mean much, and that's okay. If you're curious you can scroll down to the many posts of a very sad girl obviously crying out for help.  I want you to know that if this is you right now, if you are in the shoes I was in, things do get better. Doors open up to you and you find your passions and suddenly everything makes sense.  Suddenly you wake up not only being tired of the world but tired of being tired of it and this is the point where I'm begging you to decide to stay instead of going. Decide to go get help and get medications, or therapy or spiritual guidance, whatever it is, decide to stay in school, decide to not give up. Things do get better. You will get better. I am a living example and even if you don't believe it yet, you can be too.  I wish you all the very best as I come across this site again. x

I thought for a long time about what I would do with this account, I started out here ready and eager to write and read and I don't know when or why that changed. And despite the many times I thought about deleting I never could. So, I've made a decision to start again, to start new on here. To fall in love with the beauty of writing and reading on this site. I'm done getting caught up in all the drama that comes with some areas of this page, and I'm learning to love it again despite if people read or like my writing again. :)

I need new friends so people hmu!!

A BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LONG LOST TWIN.
          @Mrs_Rivera 
           LOVE YOU STELLAAAAAA.
          I KNOW IT SUCKS BEING SO FAR AWAY FROM HOME ON YOUR BIG DAY BUT YOU'LL GET THROUGH IT. 
          YOU ARE AMAZING.
          I HOPE YOU HAVE FUN TODAY. <3
          YOU MAKE ME LAUGH TILL I CRY WITH YOUR PUNS. XD AND YOU WILL ALWAYS BE OUR NUMBER ONE FANGIRL. C;

Thank you for adding my story to your reading list. The titles are so cool

I miss her too..... Jan 2 2013 i tried stopping her but i couldnt. And i know its hard , i still think about her all the time. But ive learned to be strong, thats what she would have wanted.

All I am is a product of wasted efforts and best intentions.//

Two years. No ones forgotten about you babe, I hope where ever you are is better than here.