Guitar Hero (Reece Bibby/Stereo Kicks)

Bad News all round....

WARNING: CONTAINS DETAILED SELF HARM!!!!

Sara's POV: 

I woke up curled up in a ball in my bed, the sheets were stained with tears and when I looked in the mirror there where dirty black marks on my face, I had cried myself to sleep, I dragged myself into the bathroom and just stood looking at myself, I was a mess, I washed my face and tied my hair back and went downstairs for something to eat, I'd been having to fend for myself recently as my mum hasn't been back to the house in two weeks, I've just been abondoned, which didn't help, not only that, a girl at college has taken to calling me horrible things and slapping me when I least expected it, this I hadn't told anyone about, not Jake or even Reece, but not like he'd care now anyway.

In the middle of Breakfast I got a call from school saying our test had been postponed till Friday, I told them I wouldn't be in today anyway, I was feeling, 'under the weather' I had lied to them as I was feeling alright I just felt like I'd end up slapping someone or more than likely bursting into tears, straight after school called I got a call from Jade, I answered slightly confused to what she might of wanted, 

J: Jade

S: Sara

S: hello

J: hi Sara there's something I need to tell you 

S: why what's up?

J: here goes...um... well me and Leo we kind of had a wild night together the night you introduced us, we didn't tell you but it happened

S: I knew it...and...

J: well that was how long ago about 3 weeks?

S: yeah I think so why?

J: well you know how I said I'd been feeling Nauseous

S: yeah... wait... oh my god don't tell me your...

J: yeah, I took a test and it was positive

S: Oh My God... does Leo know?

J: um... yeah

S: and what did he say?

J: he said nothing... his eyes widened and then he left, and I watched... he ran off

I heard sobs from the other end of the phone, and all I felt was guilt, this wouldn't have happened if I didn't invite her over, it was my fault, if I hadn't invited her none of this would of happened, 

S: well Jade I'm sure he just needed to think, just think positive, no offence

J: okay...thanks well, I've got to go so see you round

S: see you round

With that the phone hung up, my tears rushed to my eyes as I felt guilty for inviting her over when I knew full well they both have a habit of doing stupid things, this was my fault, I then heard a knock at the door...

Stood there was a tall man, not so old, looking down at the floor, he looked up at me sypmathetically, he looked at my eyes noticing the new tear stains, "um..hello are you Miss Jones, Sara Jones" He asked, I nodded as I wiped my eyes, "yes" "well, we have some news, its not very good" great more bad news. "what is it?" my voice croaked, I was sick of this croaky voice, "your mother was brought in late last night, it seems she had taken a drug overdose, and she also had a small gash to the head, she's weak and should be ok, but we'll be keeping her in, to run for tests and also some councilling, we think she may have tried to commit suicide" he nodded never looking into my eyes properly, just for a split second, I just became speechless, I couldn't say anything, "Miss are you ok... we could take you to the hospital if you'd want" "no, no its okay, is it okay if you just leave so I can be alone" I tried to speak as polietley as I could but I didn't come across as so nice, "yes, yes of course, I might pop round later if that's ok" he asked, "yes, yes of course it is" I smiled ever so slightly.

As soon as the door was closed I fell to the floor, the crying burned the back of my throat and even though I tried my hardest to stop crying I couldn't, My mum was trying to kill herself, its my fault one of my best friends is pregnant and the dad doesn't want anything to do with her anymore, and my supposedly real best friend doesn't want to see me ever again, Jake hadn't even called me once since telling me about Reece yesterday, I felt weak and helpless aginst life at the moment, I felt so angry and upset, I would usually eat when I'm upset but my throat hurt so bad I couldn't, I pulled myself up off the floor, and dragged myself into the kitchen, I looked across to where the chocolate buttons where and wept all the way there, but that's not what I was going for, I wanted pain, I wanted to feel like everyone else who had suffered, next to the chocolate was the knife block, 5 different knifes where placed in it, the biggest being the carvary knife and the sharpest being the Bread knife, which to me was like a small sword or a dagger, I peered at it running my finger over the handle of each knife, as I took my pick, finally I picked up the one I thought would suit the job, it wouldn't cut to deep just the amount I wanted it to, I didn't know the exact name of it but it was a medium sized knife smaller and not as sharp as the bread knife, I pUlled it out slowly feeling tears drop onto the spot I was about to cut, I then placed the blade to my wrist in the spot I knew was safe, I bit my lip as I painfully did the deed I set out to do, I did this repeatedly next to the first gash, I then brought the knife down to my hip, I lifted up the top I was wearing and repeated the same thing I'd done on my wrist, on my hip, I screemed in pain and put the bloodstined knife on the side next to me as I cried, my head tucked deep into my arms.

For the rest of the day I didn't move from the sofa, I sat there crying and squealing every time I knocked my hip or my wrist, even when I heard a knock at he door, I didn't move, I was just lifeless, and after looking in the mirror, I looked it, my face was pale, I looked like the walking dead, I didn't understand why my life was falling a part so quickly and so easily.

Reece's POV: 

Sara hadn't called, not even a meer text, I sat all day wondering what was wrong, every so often getting guilty looks from Jake, maybe they'd split up, I didn't know what was wrong, I just wanted to get home and see her, hug her again, just talk to her, that's all I wanted to do right now. 

Was really nervous about this chapter but Hope you enjoyed the chapter (although it was a bit depressing sorryx) don't forget to check out the outfits in the External Link>>>

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