You yelled and you screamed at me
while I flinched and tried not to flee
I worried for you time and time
While you sat there just drinking more wine
I never wanted to anger you,
I had merely wished you shushed my cries with a gentle coo
But the slightest noise made you snap
I would jump and think God had sentenced me to some Deathtrap!
Oh father,
What did I ever do to anger you so much?
You were the reason why I never wanted to be touched
Looking back on it now, father
I still wonder
Was it I who was the bother?
Was it I to anger you all the time?
Was it I who caused you to drink more wine?
I hated when you shouted
I didn't understand why it was you who seemed haunted
When it was you who first cheated
When mother left
I turned to drinking and theft
But still I stayed
When you brought out that blade
I stayed
As you beat me and I prayed.
I stayed.
But then, father
I turned eighteen
Then left and created an entire new scene
So I wonder, why father
Would you ask me to give bother
When it was clear to me
That Even when I Stayed
It was you
Who never needed my aid
