Black Butler x Seme male reader

Chapter 32

(Eric's POV)

I was in the kitchen eating my breakfast; I had waffles, eggs, and bacon, when a thought crossed my mind and as I looked at my food, I kept having the same thoughts running through my mind lately. Who? Who do I choose? Who will make me more happier? (M/n) or.........

or Alan? 

I know (M/n) and Alan are both great guys, but what if (M/n) chooses me to marry? Will I still say yes to him? I know I've liked Alan for a while now and I think he liked me, but now that we both met (M/n), we both have changed feelings and I don't know if he still feels the same towards me. I don't even know if I still feel the same towards him! I was brought out of my thoughts when a voice was heard right next to me. I looked over and saw that it was Grell. I wonder what she wants with me. 

"Oh hello, Eric! What are ya thinking about, darling?" She asked and I shrugged looking at my food again.

"I keep having these thoughts about who I really love." I responded lazily and took a bite out of my waffles. Grell looked at me in confusion.

"What do you mean? Aren't you fighting for (M/n)'s sexy heart like the rest of us?" She asked and I just shrugged again. 

"I mean sorta, but I don't know since there was someone that I fell in love with before any of us even met the king. And I knew they liked me back too, but I don't know what to think anymore. I like the both of them and I don't know who to choose and its frustrating." I said moving my hands in my hair looking like I'm about to pull it while glaring at my food. I heard Grell squeal and I knew she was probably hugging herself and fangirling like she always does. Grell then took one of my hands into hers and jumped up and down still fangirling and squealing.

"Oh! Eric has a cruuush!" She squealed, bringing out the word 'crush' and I quickly covered her mouth, embarrassed,  to stop her from saying anything else that's embarrassing. 

"SSSSHHHH!" Grell freezes and stops jumping looking at me. "I don't want anyone to know until I figure things out and choose a person." I said looking at Grell seriously and said trans woman nodded and I uncovered her mouth. Once Grell's mouth was uncovered, she took a seat next to me and looked at me with excitement.

"So..." She started, "... who's this crush of yours?" She asked.

"*sighs* I-it's..... it's...... A-alan." I stuttered quietly blushing slightly as Grell started squeal again and I covered his mouth. "I think I still like h-him, but I-i don't know. A-and I don't k-know if h-he still l-likes me because of (M-m/n)." I said a little embarrassed but was still frustrated.

"Awe! I knew it!" She squealed but it was muffled by my hand. I sighed trying to calm down and Grell chuckled. "Why don't you talk about it with Alan, darling? Or maybe ask (M/n)? He is a lot older than all of us, which means he's the most... *moans slightly while hugging herself* experienced." She dreamily said and I blushed slightly knowing what he really meant by saying 'experienced', but also knew he sorta meant that he would probably know more about love than any of us. 

"I might ask (M/n), if I get the chance."I said and went back to eating my breakfast but looked at Grell one last time. "Thanks for the advice, I guess." I said and smiled then going back to eating.

"Oh, don't you worry your little head about it, Eric! But your welcome, hope you choose soon!" She said excitedly then pranced away like she usually does. I chuckled and kept eating, but couldn't help but wonder if Alan still feels same as our reaper days.

(Alan's POV) 

Why can't I stop thinking of him?!?!?!?!?! I'm not supposed to b thinking of him, but I can't help but let my mind wonder off to him an his stupid, hot face and his adorable smile. God dammit, not again! But, I feel like I can't choose between the two. I like them both, but fell for each at different times. This is so weird for a reaper like me. (M/n), I fell for him when I met him which was just months ago and he gave the both of us life and no more 'Thorns of Death'. Eric, oh my Eric is a different story. Eric, we met such a long time ago ad we've been through so much. We both fell for each other a long time ago and died with each other a long time ago, but now there's (M/n) and I fell for him too. Ugh, I don't know who to choose! They both have done so much for me and I know I need to choose only one! I need help with this, and fast. Should I ask Eric if he still loves me, or should I maybe ask (M/n) for some advice? I mean, he is older than us, so he might know what to do in this type of situation. I decided I should schedule some time to talk to (M/n) when I have the time. I guess I should get something to eat, I feel quite parched. As I left my room, I started to wonder if Eric is having the same thought as me. Or at least still likes me like he did during our reaper days. 

TO BE CONTINUED

Hey guys! Sorry this chapter was published later than usual, but I was busy with family during most of the day. Though, I was able to get this filler chapter in less time than a usual chapter. Even if this is just a filler chapter, I hope you enjoyed seeing Eric and Alan's point of views on each other and (M/n). Of course there is a reason for doing this since I will definitely be doing an ending with for each of them, but for the other endings I'll have them two get together for the ship. Once this is done and published, I will be publishing an A/n to explain something that I have been thinking for quite a while. Its not bad news, but hopefully you like the idea and will enjoy it. Again I hope you enjoyed this filler chapter and keep reading till the end. Until next time, BYE LOVELIES ;)