(Sasunaru) Its complicated.

Rethinking and reclaiming

As I was eating my ramen that night, Iooked out at the city from my window, feeling the abscence Sasuke like a weight, bringing me down and pulling at me. Why should I feel like this, when I barely know the guy? Why? I dont get it. And I dont know what to do about that. But one thing I know, and that is.. I really dont like this. I thought it would pass if I stayed away from him, that it would cool down and fade, but it didnt. I sighed, throwing the almost finished ramen into the trash can at my feet, and leaning my head on the wall behind me. I closed my eyes as the cool suface of it reached the back side of my head. I was sitting in my bed. I took a deep breath, reaching a decision, before standing up to brush my teeth, getting ready to go to bed.

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I felt the wooden surface of my desk as I rested my forehead on it, my arms crossed in front of my head, also on my desk. Kakashi didn't notice, since he was looking into his book, wich was not as unusual as it should be. I just didnt want to feel the harsh light from the classroom in my eyes, or see Sakura giving me looks of seductiveness, or Ino reaching across her desk behind Sasuke to whisper god knows what into his ear. Everything was just not how I liked it, and right now, all I was prepared to put energy into, was to look for a opening to change those things. I sighed as I rested my left foot, clad with a white shoe of the mark converse, on the leg of my chair. Felt the school air around me, the silent whispers and movements of students, the hushed snickers and small mumbles. I opened my deep blue eyes a little, seeing the wood of the desk gain focus, but closed them again as it became too harsh, too vivid. Closing my eyes made everything seem slightly more distant, giving me a little, if only imagined, space of my own. I hadn't had any particular good sleep for two days, and I felt worn out, over used. But I wasn't gonna let that show. I finally had friends, and I wouldn't let anything personal bring that fact down.

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-Yes?

My attention snapped back as I heard Kakashi:s voice. Wasn't it ...I glance at the watch on my wrist. Yes it was 15 minutes left of class. Must be a student then.

-May I go to the bathroom?

I froze.

-You cant wait fifteen minutes.

No, he cant.

-I would prefer not.

-Fine then. Sasuke, you are excused. Everyone else, continue your work these last fifteen minutes as productive as you can.

I waited as I heard a chair move against the floor, and then footsteps walking through the rows of students. The door opened and then closed.  My heart beat just a little faster, and I sure was aware of it. I could hear it pound as I watched the seconds tick by on my wrist. A eternity later, wich my watch appereantly believed was only 15 seconds I took a deep breath. As 25 seconds had went by my patience level reached its limit.

-May I be excused as well?

Kakashi looked up from his book, a knowing look in his eyes that made my skin crawl, just a bit.

-And why do you want to be excused, Naruto?

I rolled my eyes. Slightly.

-Beacuse I need to go to the bathroom.

-And you can't wait fifteen minutes either?

-Not if I can avoid it.

-I see. Well then, you're excused as well I guess.

I was hyper aware of everything as I walked throught the door. The sound my white converse made every time I took a step towards the door. The way my hands seemed to shake, even thougth not enough to be noticed by anyone else but myself. The feeling of cool steel against the palm of my hand as it wrapped around the door handle. And then I was on my way to the bathrooms. I looked at the floor about a meter in front of my feet as I walked, blinking as they reached a couple of low, black vans. I followed the edge of the dark blue jeans up long legs, and then a navy blue t-shirt wrapping around a handsome chest. I stopped walking as my eyes then continued up, only to stop at that face I knew all too well. He hasn't seen me yet, he was wiping his hands on a paper towel pulled out from the machine on the wall in front of me, but on his side of it. He scrunched it up and tossed it in the trash, his eyes then stopping at me.

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He was standing there, his blonde hair effortlessly reaching the verge of human capacity of good looking, his white t-shirt and black jeans fitted on his sculpted body. His sea blue eyes narrowed and he started walking against me, and I didnt know how to react. He seemed...Pissed.

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I walked up to him fiercly, my hands roughly grabbing his collar. Not missing a beat I continued walking, forcing him to walk backwards. His eyes were wide and I know I wasn't expected to react like this, but I don't really care right now,as I continued to push him backwards. Until he hit the wall. Then I harshly pressed my lips onto his, craving what I haven't had for so long.

Touch.

He seemed surprised, but kissed back soon, and I roughly slid my toungue passed his lips, earning dominance in mere seconds.

Emmilou: Dont be mad at me! My computer shut down, -crashed- And I didnt get it to work until now! I made a little longer than ususal chapter today.. I think.. And tomorrow, as you might have guessed, I will write and upload four chapters...

Sasuke: EMMILOU!!!!

Emmilou:Huh? What are you so upset about?

Sasuke: WHAT DO YOU THINK? I MEAN IT CANT BE THE WHOLE SEME/UKE SITUATION IN THE BOOK NOW; CAN IT?

Naruto: Shut it. I liked being Seme.

Sasuke: See what you have done?SEE WHAT YOU HAVE CAUSED!

Emmilou: Hehehe.... See you tomorrow! *If Im still alive*

Sasuke: And thats a big If...