AOT - WHEN HEAVEN WEEPS

CHAPTER 13: "FORGOTTEN SORROW"

  You stepped back from Eren and looked at him...

"Pick me up, Eren..." You stated.

He was going to do it, Eren decided. Next time he saw Mikasa and Armin, he wouldn't be afraid to touch them. He pushed himself straight, sitting cross-legged, and observed the problem before him. He had to grab carefully, not to cause any damage, and watch out for the 3D manoeuver gear, whose straps would snap if he exerted too much pressure. Gingerly, he reached out with his thumb and index fingers, inching them towards your chest.

"If you only use two fingers," You said, making Eren snatch his hand back as if burned, "You'll only have two contact points, which means you'll have to exert greater pressure on those two points."

Calm down. He hadn't done anything wrong. You didn't even look bothered. Try again. Think. He flattened his hand, moving his last three fingers out of the way, and brought it in from the side, to try and encircle Your ribcage with his thumb and forefinger. You raised your arms obligingly, giving Eren easy access.

There. He tightened his grip just enough to feel the presence of something warm and living between his fingers, watching Your face like a hawk for any sign of discomfort, and lifted. You leaned forward, your forearms resting against Eren's thumb, and your legs dangled a bit. You looked supremely unconcerned about being held in the air.

"He was so light", Eren thought. From this angle, from his titan's perspective, he could appreciate the symmetry that was Your body. Every part of you was perfectly proportioned, your shortness invisible. Youwere soft but deadly, your strength currently coiled, dormant in Eren's hand.

"Transfer me to your other hand," You ordered, cutting through his reverie. With his fingers taking up Your torso, he wasn't quite sure how to make the transfer without dropping you. Maybe... he tilted You backwards, supporting you with his other fingers, and replaced his right thumb with the left, then tilted you forward and repeated the process until he was holding you the same way as before, only now with his left hand. You had dangled passively throughout the entire transfer.

"Again," You said. "I'm not a doll. Take my responses into account." Of course. This time, when Eren brought his hands together, You reached out and pulled yourself into the other hand, using Eren for support.

You continued to teach Eren some various exercises and soon rest...

"They sure taking their time..." You huffed as you sat in Eren's Huge Palm.

Eren gave a low none threatening growl in response...

"Delayed my ass..." You huffed.

You didn't know that the Corps were hiding behind the tree watching you and Eren... Eren unconsciously yawned, his maw was terrifying, but not to you, you saw Titan-shifters doing that a lot. You enjoyed the view up there and couldn't help but remember, that distant past that had been bothering you occasionally, as if something was calling you... you couldn't remember where was that place and that Suffering Titan you saw back then, you often visit that Titan and singing him some Song... you could Remember the song, it was like it had been there even before you were born.

You didn't realized you were humming that song until Eren nudged you awake.

"What?" You asked.

Eren let out a low whine, you noticed his eyes glistening a bit...

"You want me to sing the one I had been humming?" You asked.

Eren whined again... you guessed that's a yes. You cleared your throat and began singing.

"Don't cry for me, how easy love has gone.
Try to see, how deep my despair is
Come the winds of fate and time, take all my tearful memories."

It was a surprise that your voice didn't faltered after not singing for as long as you could remember.

"Call out to thee, singing your name in sweet harmony
but only echoes fade away.
Crying breeze to thee every moment with chiming wind
where has the silent tears."

You noticed Eren went still and Listening as you sing... the song was a little sad...

"Don't sigh for me, your fate rings false to me,
try to see the shards of history.
Darkness fills my heart and I'm.. laughing loud on all that's passed us by."

Your old memories flooded your vision, it was from that certain time, somewhere in the distant past... you had always that feelings that somewhere, you were alive and just died.

"Call out to thee, singing your name in sweet harmony
the wind blows endlessly."

"Είμαι εδώ, δεν φοβάσαι, μικρό μου άγγελο...." [I'm Here Don't you Fear, My little Angel....] The Deep, yet gentle voice called out (A/N:Sorry I referred the Letters to my Dictionary)

"Roaming around whirly world, rough breath in dark, cruel blades and tears in sorrowful days.
Burning away hollow hopes, don't pray for God where the angels have gone, so I seek,
weep myself all gently, 'till I'm blind."

You hadn't realized that you were crying as you remembered that voice, somehow the voice of Eren's Titan Roar had reminded you of that Titan in your Distant Past's Voice... it has similarities yet Eren's had no ability to talk, only primal roars and grunts... nothing at all...

"Roaming around whirly world, rough breath in dark, cruel blades and tears in sorrowful days.
Burning away hollow hopes, don't pray for God where the angels have gone, so I seek,
weep myself all gently, 'till I'm blind."

There is this certain sorrow in your heart, it felt like someone had vanished and in the faintest Memory, you could see yourself standing to that certain spot in the starry field and was looking at the empty spot where the Titan was supposed to be...

"Δτλασ..." [Atlas...] The tearful voice called out as if asking where the Titan did had gone to...

"Please come to me, come dusk, the past will flee,
try to see the new dawn what brings hope faintly."

After singing the song, you hadn't realized that you were crying while singing midway... despite your emotionless façade your tears flowing... it's like the Forgotten Sorrow was returning to you from the distant past.

You blinked when Eren's large finger wipes away your tears, you looked at him and you were surprised that he was still in his Titan Form? How long was he in there? Was Eren still conscious in there? But that didn't matter, you looked at the Titan's eyes and somehow there was longing and love in those warm teal-green, glazed eyes... there is this inkling feelings that this is not Eren... but you ignored it.

Your attentions were cut off when Levi and Erwin called your attentions... you motioned for the Titan to let you down, it was obeyed without protest... Levi cut the Titan's nape and pulled Eren out who stumbled upon reaching the ground, he had this panicked look in his face and was looking for something or it was you whom he was looking for... as he saw you he ran to your side and held your shoulder asking panicked question.

"Are you alright? I didn't hurt you, right? And why are you crying?" Eren asked frantically despite his muscles protest. "I'm sorry I fell asleep while listening to your song!"

You felt your heart stopped there... Eren fell asleep and the Titan that wiped your tears away instead of eating you whole... your eyes widened a little... you had to turn away from him and wipe those tears... you had no idea why you were crying...

"I'm fine, You didn't hurt me and nothing..." You stated flatly. "Let's go back Yeager, you need to rest, you've been inside that Titan for the longer period than I had expected.

You left the confused group and returned to your Horse... that Sunset you took a shower in your room, your heart is still pounding for whatever reason, Yeager's Titan reminded you of that Titan who disappeared from the Starry Field... but that's impossible, That Titan had vanished 2,000 Years ago without a trace according to the ancient transcript.

He vanished without a trace, but then why did you thought that your Past Self died? Why? For what reason... why did your past self died? You closed your eyes and tried to search for the answer and the only answer is seeing your past self bathed in blood and a word that you barely understand

"Για τους Ανθρώπους." [For the Humans.] The voice said in a weak whisper. (A/N: Technically speaking of Humanity.)

And everything went dark...

You opened your eyes and found yourself looking back at Eren's worried looks, you felt the soft sheets of your bed, you blinked, you were in the showers a while ago...

"What?" You asked a little groggy.

"You passed out in your own Shower room, The Corporal asked me to check you up and I found you pass out in your Shower Stall. So I carried you back to your bed. What happened." Eren answered worriedly.

"I must've forgot to eat breakfast..." You muttered.

"You shouldn't have done that! You got everyone worried when I found you passed out!" Eren scolded you.

You looked away and sat up, you were in your Pyjamas...

"Who dressed me up?" You asked.

"Corporal Levi did..." Eren answered. "Wait here I'll get you dinner."

While Eren was out you looked at your hands, there was this odd sensation that someone must've touched them for a very long time and the warmth lingered. The warmth... it's very Familiar... and somewhere in that fogged memory a smaller bloodied left hand was held by a Titan's hand

"I'm here don't you fear..." The deep voice was fade and unclear but it was there.

You lied down back to bed and your eyes were filled with tears and unconsciously covered them with your left hand. Why were those ancient memories coming back? What does it trying to say?