Secret Love

Chapter 18

I wake up early and take long, relaxing shower. Back in my room I slip on my most comfortable pair of shorts and a muscle shirt. I pad out to the kitchen and gather up everything I will need to make french toast, bacon, and pancakes.

Jason and Ash walk in right as I am plating the last of the pancakes. They both stop talking and inhale deeply through their noses. I roll my eyes at them as they race over to the counter to grab plates. Boys!

I snatch Ash's plate out of his hand, "Sit down. I'll fix your plate."

He smiles at me, "You know you don't have to do that Sammy. I may have a broken arm, but I am cable of fixing myself a plate."

"Sit." I say sternly.

He smirks and sits down at the kitchen table. I fill his plate with a larger helping of french toast, bacon and pancakes. I set it in front of him, along with a fork and glass of orange juice.

"Thanks hon." he says.

"Hon?" my brother questions him.

Ash avoids the question and shovels food into his mouth. Jason is staring at Ash, waiting for an answer. I sit down with my plate and face my brother, "Chill Jason. It's just a word."

"Riiiight." he says slowly.

Jason keeps looking back-and-forth between Ash and I while we eat. I roll my eyes at Jason and kick him in the leg. He glares at me and I smile sweetly at him. He takes the hint and backs off with the staring.

Jason helps me clean up the dishes while Ash watches TV. in the living room. I follow Jason into the living room and sit in on of the recliners.

"I'm headed to the store to get a few groceries. You guys need anything?" My brother asks.

"Nope." Ash and I say simultaneously.

Jason walks out and I listen to the door shut behind him. His truck rumbles as he starts it. It grows fainter the further he gets from the house. The moment we can no longer hear the rumble Ash shuts off the TV. He waits for me to look at him before he speaks.

"I remember what I told you at the hospital Sammy. I want you to know that I meant every word I said," Ash holds up his hand when I open my mouth to say something, "just let me finish. I'm sorry for lying to you. I never should have done that. I'm going to make it up to you. I promise."

"Why did you lie to me Ash? You could have just told me when I asked you. Do you realize how much that hurt me? Do realize how much it killed me inside to see you with Rachel!? How much it killed me knowing you would rather be with her than me!?" I shout at him.

Ash scoffs at me, "Do you think it was any better for me seeing you with Cam all the time Sammy? At least I wasn't dating your friend!"

"You made it clear that you didn't want to be with me Ash!" I snap.

"I lied!" he yells.

"Why!? Why did you lie to me!?" I scream through my tears.

"Because Sammy, you're off limits," he says quietly, "you're my best friend's little sister. Jason would kill me if he ever finds out that I'm in love you."

I freeze as his words sink in. He loves me? I look up at him in wonder. Ash lets out a sigh and walks over to me, cupping my cheek in his good hand, "I love you Sammy, so damn much it scares me. There is nothing in this world I wouldn't do for you. I know I've fucked up and I've been such an asshole to you and I'm so sorry for that Sammy. I'm tired of trying to fight what I feel for you. I don't want to see you with other guys, it kills me every time I do. You're mine Sammy." he whispers the last part roughly.

I gaze at him for a long time, neither one of us speaking. Finally I break the silence, "What exactly is it you want Ash?" I ask him, needing to know exactly what he means.

"If you're willing to give me another chance I want you to be my girlfriend. I want you in every possible way Sammy."

Without giving it another thought I bury my hand in his hair and bring his mouth down to mine. Ash darts his tongue out, licking my bottom kip. I eagerly open for him and we both moan as the kiss deepens. Ash wraps his arm around me and pulls me close to him. I run my free hand under his shirt and skim my fingers over his stomach. He breaks away from my lips and trails a path down my neck where he gently bites and licks the flesh there, "Tell me that you love me Sammy, I need to hear you say it." he whispers against my neck.

I pull away from him and look directly into his eyes, "I love you Ash, more than anything and yes I'll be you girlfriend," Ash's entire face lights up like he just won the lottery, "but we can't tell Jason. Not now at least."

"We are going to tell him though right?" Ash asks me.

I nod, "Of course we are, but we both know that Jason will overreact to this. We just have to wait for the right time to tell him."

Ash sits down on the couch and pulls me down with him, "Okay, I'll let you decide when the right time is." he says to me.

I smile and give him a tender kiss on the lips. He playfully nips at my bottom lip.

Bang!

We both jump apart. I hop back onto the recliner and Ash quickly turns on the TV.

"I'm home!" Jason hollers.

"Living room!" I shout back.

Jason walks back in, carrying a bunch of groceries in his arms. I jump out of the chair and help Jason carry them into the kitchen and put everything away. We retreat back to the living room once we are done.

I try not to look over at Ash while we watch TV. I don't want to give anything away to Jason. I smile to myself, happy that there is anything I could give away to Jason. Ash and I are finally together and I could not be happier. I can hold him and kiss him anytime I want to. I get to call him mine and break any bitches' hand who even thinks of hitting on my man. I am definitely a very happy person right now.

I lay in bed, replaying the today over and over again in my head. Ash and I would sneak kisses any chance we got. We would find reasons to be next to each other without Jason getting suspicious.

Jason. The only downside to this new relationship is the fact that Jason would lose it if he ever found out. Of course he is going to eventually, when the right moment comes up I'll tell him.

I fall asleep to thoughts of Ash and Jason swirling around in my head.