Tormenting Mr.Gangster

Stubborn mule and obstinate donkey

9 pm, The den

It's already 9 pm, where the hell is this woman ?! Randhir growled getting impatient with every passing minute.

He was lying in his bed, eyes closed, beyond frustrated by his temporary handicap. Having nothing else to do, his mind wandered to the recent events... He still couldn't beleive it, he had jumped in to save her life...trading his own. It was only a miracle that the bullet didn't hit any vital organ... he had jumped in without thinking... with only one thing in mind...saving her ! What scared him most was the fact that he had willingly put his life on line, knowing that he could have died... he had been ready to give up his life for hers, the thought hit him. He had been ready to give up everything to save her, his life along with his goals... his years long hard work... his revenge. He had been ready to throw everything out of the window just so he could save her... Nothing else had mattered...but her.

It was still a foreign feeling for Randhir... caring for someone...caring for someone to the extent of giving up your like for theirs... He sighed. He was not the loving and passionate kind, he was the rough and straight forward kind, he never asked or requested, he ordered and took... yet this little girl had stirred emotions he never knew existed in him... Life had not been easy on him...all he had known ever since he was a kid was eat or be eaten... kill or be killed...He grew up in an environment where there was no such thing as care, affection, love...these were just mere word devoid of sense...naive utopia...hypothetical crap. ...Yeah women threw themselves at him showing their so called affections, but he knew damn well what they all wanted...they were only greedy and materialistic little leech... freeloaders, looking for an easy way up the ladder, using their bodies to get there... Disgusting.

Sanyukta on the other hand...had been something else since the beginning ! The first time he had met Sanayukta he had underestimated her ! Despite the wicked trick she had pulled on him, he had been impressed by her ways...the second time they met, she had spiked his curiosity...From the beginning he had felt a different vibe from her. Since then, their encounters had resulted in the awakening of feelings he were unfamaliar with till now...yes he had been beyond angry at some time, furious at her but there were also times when he had felt warn...cared...happy... he even felt remorse at some point... he had been fascinated with her...her challenging and spitefull nature thrilled him...but above all he had felt alive... like...like life was finally worth living !!! And without them trying to or even wanting to, a connection slowly wired up, linking some part of them together...

Randhir sighed halting his monologue...Great ! Now he sounded like a love sick puppy. Hell he even felt like a love sick puppy waiting for her like this...Despite the nature of his feelings toward her, there was one thing he had a hard time comming to term with... she had a lot of power on him ! and that was revolting !...He hated not being in control... it was a foreign feeling...something he was not used to...he felt out of his territory...and that somewhere scared him !...And the fact that it scared him made him even more angrier !...He was scared because he had started expecting things...something he had stopped doing a long time ago... he knew what expecting meant, it meant leaving the door open for people to hurt you... and the more you expected the harder was the blow if the expectations were not met... He clenched his fist in anger...This Sanyukta had literally turned his world upside down ! ...Him restlessly waiting for her was a proof of her control over him... it felt humiliating...reduced to a love sick puppy...How he hated her... !!!

Enough ! I will not wait for her any longer ! he shouted aggressively.

I did what I had to ! ...I don't care anymore ! he said to himself.

Wrong, a little voice said in his head. You know you care... and you know very well what this is all about...this is about your selfish side wanting her to give all her attention to you...this is you craving for her attention...you wanting to be the center of her world...you wanting her eyes on you only... you wanting her care for you only...you wanting her hands to touch you only...you wanting her for yourself only...at least have the decency to admit it, whispered the voice.