God Save My King (Sid Vicious FanFic)

Ch. 25: Numb

I was staring out the window, legs crossed and tea in hand, when I heard my mother enter the bedroom. Much like Noelle, the first thing she did was sit down on my bed and hold me. The gesture was kind, but I still felt somehow numb to it. Nothing felt right anymore, if I even felt at all. Life was empty, and I wondered how I had ever managed to live without Noelle or the Pistols before.

"You have to leave this room eventually, dear," my mum reasoned, petting my hair softly. "It's not healthy to be cooped up in the house like this."

I didn't even flinch as she combed her fingers through a painful knot in my hair. When was the last time I'd brushed my hair, let alone washed it? I couldn't recall. "I'm perfectly healthy, mother."

More silence fell between us. I felt awful that I was making me parents worry over me, but at the same time, I didn't really care. I just wanted to be alone. Was that too much to ask?

"Well, your father and I are going to visit your grandma in the country this week. I want to know that you're going to be okay here all by yourself."

I rolled my eyes, sipping at my tea. It had gone cold by now, but I sipped at it anyway. "I'm not a child, mum."

"No," she replied with a sigh. "No, you most certainly are not."

She stayed for a moment as though she was hoping I would start a conversation with her that would allow her an excuse to stay. When it was obvious that I wasn't going to let that happen, she shifted uncomfortably where she sat before reluctantly getting up.

When she reached the door, she turned to me and paused to speak.  "I love you, Kimmy. Whoever is doing this to you, I hope you know that they don't deserve you."

With that, I heard the door click softly to signal her departure. Upon her exit, tears began to trickle down my face, making stains on my bedsheets.

"I know, mum. I know."