Walking up to my door he seems to have his eyes glued the the bushes on the older ladies bushes next door. I smiled and get up, brushing off the dirty from my butt. I sat outside waiting for him to show. Hes 5 minutes late. He gently hugs me and says I look beautiful. Altho it sounds sweet he didn't seem to mean it. Telling him thank you in the sweetest voice I could manage. It seemed to fool him. Good I wan this date to be the best ever. His black hair and brown eyes staring at the bushes the hole time we were outside. We got in his car and he drove to bugger king. Hmm....He knows I hate this restaurant. I get a simple burger and drink. I end up paying for myself. Good thing I have money.Odd. Hes hasent been talking to me. Don't on dates you talk and have fun? We get back to my house and same as always hes staring at the bush. I smile and tell him I had fun. "K" Was his reply. I glare at him slightly and nod. "Okay. Well I will see you in school tomorrow right?" He just walks off....THE FUCK?!?!? I go the bush and find his friends inside with pics. I realize I was a joke to them. I can hear my heart break. I smile and walk inside as soon as I get inside I break down. My family is never home. I am always alone. I fall asleep on the floor by the door. I wake up to my phone going off. Its 9am. Oh well....I will just got to school and say traffic was bad and I had to help my sick friend because her mom was on a vacation. I'm so done. When I get to school in my normal "emo" outfit everyone stares at me. I keep and monotone face. I walk into class and the works " ____ IS A BAD LAY!!" I just bust out laughing. I fall to my knees . "This shit is funny as hell. I can tell you all this. I .didn't .fuck.him. " I smile sweetly.Walking out of class I see Jake. (i dont remember the name so sorry if its changed) I just walk by. He goes to stop me , I pull my arm away from his grasp. "____.." I stare at him emotionless. "I....I didn't mean for them to go this far.." I go to walk away. He hugs me. I slap him " I was a joke. Don't act like you care." He laughs. "Your right, you're so stupid how could anyone love someone like you? Not even your own parents care enough to live in the same damn house as you." Jake states. I walk off acting like I don't care but inside I'm dying slowly. All I need is one last push. One more comment. One more statement and it will be all over. I'm tired of being the nobody. No one cares. No one sees. No one even looks at me. I am nothing. I smile and understand this was his plan from the beginning. Jake wants to me to feel like this. Good. One last push. Please. Someone ....Push me over the edge and leave. I smile and get on the internet I see a lot of hate...But also people saying that it will be ok. And..They...Care about me? The hell. I choose to ignore the love and and only care about the hate. I will keep going. Looking for hate. Looking for a reason to hate myself. I see one comment that seems like a great amount of hate. It is. I look on it...I see someone tagged me. The hell? I dont have any fb friends. I see its Jake. It reads
_____ was the worst lay. She didn't moan. She didn't move. Shes loose. DON'T EVEN TALK TO HER! Shes so stupid. I hate her. I went on a date with her out of pitty. Worst mistake ever . Take it from me. Don't even look at her. - ___ (the - means who is being tagged)
I smile and reread it over and over again. I read the comments that are flying in. All hate. They all hate me. A lot tag me in posts telling me to kill myself.I smile. They will have their wish. I will end it after school tomorrow. Tomorrow is Friday. They will never know until Monday or later. I hope they enjoy their wish. I got to bed. I really hope my death is painful. I really do. It will let me feel the only thing I can at this point. That would be pain. I love the idea of being pale. Cold skin. God I can't wait. Walking into school I keep my normal bitch face. They all glare. Its funny. They will act sad during school when they find out I am dead. I decided to wear a sleepless top with a v neck. A black shirt and thigh high black socks with black pumps, black finger less gloves. I sit down in class and keep my bitch face. I swear I can't really smile anymore It hurts when they start calling me names but never once have I cried. I see the preppiest girl ever walk up to me. She does something un..I just don't know why. She.Hugged.Me. Her friends laughed. I push her off and take the note off my back. "I'm a slut" is what it reads. I smile and wait for the end of school. Time to end it all.
HAPPY!!!!!!!
I will write the happy today, publish it by sunday
and creat the sad on monday. and publish by .....sunday :D
