i dont give a fuck

I am tired of finding myself alone,yet i punch everyone away;i don't want to talk but i want and when i try to text my friends it feel as if i am doing a big effort;idk why
I miss my boyfriend,i love him even if i break up,my heart belong to him maybe i am blind or no but who cares i love him,i hope maybe one day we will meet again if its God will

I want to be closer to God;i want to be close to الله؛

My mom really hurt me and i am lost in study,i'm scared,scared of everything

That why i want God by my side;
Who know maybe one day i will meet you again yk