𝟽𝟶𝟽 𝚜𝚝𝚘𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜

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I don’t know anymore.
          
          School sucks, math sucks, life sucks.
          
          Everyday I wake up and feel empty, the world is grey. Every time I come home I feel drained, every time I go to school I feel drained. I’m so scared I’m going to lose friends I have because I’m clingy,  I try to stop it but I don’t know anymore.
          
          Maybe it’s because I never really had a permanent friend group. I’d move around, I was always the new kid. I’d make friends and see them go.
          
          I don’t want that, I want people I know I can be friends with.
          
          But that’s hard. When everything you seem to know implodes on you.
          
          When yourself worth is connected to your grades, your friends to you parents approval. It sucks. 
          
          I got a 54 in math, the lowest I’ve ever gotten. I haven’t failed, but somehow this doesn’t feel enough. I know it isn’t enough. When you’re surrounded by the best, you have to compete. I use to get 90’s and 80’s but now I can’t even maintain my fucking math grade. My other greases have been fine! I’ve gotten 90’s and 80’s WHY CANT I JUST MAKE IT WORK.
          
          I know I can do better
          
          So why does it feel like I’m stuck?
          
          No matter how hard I try 
          
          Why isn’t it enough?
          
          Am I enough?
          
          I don’t know anymore.
          
          (I’ll delete this later. I just wanted to vent)

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