✨🍙 Tengen 🍙✨

They won't leave us alone, people out here telling us that we don't matter, that what we went through was just simple stuff and people who didn't suffer worse apparently? 
          
          So your telling me that I, a person who suffered mental ab*se and other forms doesn't matter? That we don't know what it's like even though we do?, your out of your mind, people make me sick at times, especially whenever they make us look like fools
          
          There are multiple people out there like my lover and I who suffered from a bunch of things, and yet people wanna push us away, or say we didn't go through anything but we did, and I find that wrong, so wrong
          
          What is going in with this world now, do we live in a place where people can tell someone who has been through hell that we don't matter and what we went through was nothing?, yea no
          
          Just stop. 

Tengen?

how are you doing fren?

How are you doing?, are you alright?, would you like to talk about anything?

I don't wanna be here anymore, my life gets worse, my days get worse, everything gets worse and all I can do is watch..

You’re really poetic man 

When i tell y'all my life has gotten so much worse, it's that bad. 

You know sometimes I think
          
          I can respond so quickly and be on time whenever someone texted me about anything normal or just something pure usual but.. 
          
          Why am i so late to respond whenever someone actually needs my help, or they are upset? 
          
          ~Aaron/Ace/Tengen
          3:12 AM
          March 25

A mirror
          
          When you look in a mirror you see yourself, you see you now, but what about you? Your broken, torn, sad, depressed, but no one sees it but you. 
          
          You always wonder why though, why can't no one see your pain, why can't someone just look at you and ask if your ok. 
          
          Why someone doesn't get you or understand you, why someone chooses to ignore you, push you away and rather make you feel worse. 
          
          Why someone you trusted and liked makes you look like the bad one, and then abandons you, why you can't tell other people about your problems. 
          
          All you can say to yourself is that it's your fault, it's your fault you can't tell anyone, you can't do anything to save yourself, then it goes downhill. 
          
          It keeps going until your gone, you gave up, your at your lowest but yet, no one still comes to help you, so mirror on my closest.. 
          
          Why can't someone see me?. 
          
          ~Aaron/Tengen
          3/20/2023
          3:25 AM

Sometimes,
          
          Sometimes I wanna cry out in pain, sometimes I feel like things are my fault for no reason or explanation. 
          
          Sometimes I feel like I'm slowly killing the inner me/child of mine, sometimes I wonder if keeping your mouth shut is the best way to look perfect. 
          
          Sometimes I wonder what would happen if you just let others get away with anything bad that will effect you, sometimes I wanna shout into the sky.
          
          Sometimes I wanna know what I'm doing wrong even though people say I'm not, sometimes I wonder if I'm better off not existing. 
          
          Sometimes.. Sometimes I wonder who even am I, why are people so mean, not understanding, so cruel and judgmental. 
          
          Maybe because it's all due to me, these are questions people ask themselves everyday when no one even notices. 
          
          ~ Aaron/Tengen 
          3/19/2023