savagehero

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Hello guys, gals, and non-binary pals! I don't know why I'm telling you this but in case you don't know I'm a total bitch. I wasn't always this way but ya know. So I just remembered before corona happened being at a store I think it was Walmart and seenmy ex Max. So basically hes like 18 or 19 I think but wen we dated he was 17 and I was 13 ngl. Im pretty sure that's illegal but I was dumb and I still am but who cares. So I'm not gonna lie but once upon a time not long ago I was a hoe and this was the year I was going into 7th grade. I dated like 3 or 4 guys one right after another. And these were like really hot guys and I'm ugly as hell if you don't know. But they were all a little older than me so yeah. But when we broke up and I started dating um I think it was Alex or drew I'm sorry I can't remember! And when I did he told my at the time bf that me and him had sex. We didn't of course. So I was with my aunt, my bf Alex (this is all a confusing story but if you want to know more just PM me) and some of my friends. And we saw him and he came up to me mind you he kept trying to get back with me over the time. But he said " I haven't seen you in a long time. Where have you been?" I replayed with "hiding from you and your STDs" and he just ignores me and says "what's up babe?" "My standards, bye" and we were off. 
          	
          	
          	I learned a very important lesson that day. You can tell people can't choose to be gay. Because let's be honest, men are trash.

savagehero

@AnimeGurl1089 Yeah its really confusing, but thank you 
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AnimeGurl1089

@savagehero Honestly this is a little confusing, but those comebacks were just amazing. :)
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savagehero

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Hello guys, gals, and non-binary pals! I don't know why I'm telling you this but in case you don't know I'm a total bitch. I wasn't always this way but ya know. So I just remembered before corona happened being at a store I think it was Walmart and seenmy ex Max. So basically hes like 18 or 19 I think but wen we dated he was 17 and I was 13 ngl. Im pretty sure that's illegal but I was dumb and I still am but who cares. So I'm not gonna lie but once upon a time not long ago I was a hoe and this was the year I was going into 7th grade. I dated like 3 or 4 guys one right after another. And these were like really hot guys and I'm ugly as hell if you don't know. But they were all a little older than me so yeah. But when we broke up and I started dating um I think it was Alex or drew I'm sorry I can't remember! And when I did he told my at the time bf that me and him had sex. We didn't of course. So I was with my aunt, my bf Alex (this is all a confusing story but if you want to know more just PM me) and some of my friends. And we saw him and he came up to me mind you he kept trying to get back with me over the time. But he said " I haven't seen you in a long time. Where have you been?" I replayed with "hiding from you and your STDs" and he just ignores me and says "what's up babe?" "My standards, bye" and we were off. 
          
          
          I learned a very important lesson that day. You can tell people can't choose to be gay. Because let's be honest, men are trash.

savagehero

@AnimeGurl1089 Yeah its really confusing, but thank you 
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AnimeGurl1089

@savagehero Honestly this is a little confusing, but those comebacks were just amazing. :)
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aetz13

Hey, I read your 'about' section on your page. I think it's really amazing 4 people like you who have gone through depression and suicidal thoughts, to feel empathy for others. I've gone through that stuff 2, so thank you for being there 4 others.
          :) 

savagehero

@aetz13 Your welcome! Im just trying to spread the message of how there are others who have gone through the same thing, and that your not alone 
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savagehero

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So I heard this sound on tik tok. "I'm not angry anymore, well sometimes I am. I don't think badly of you, well sometimes" and all I can think about is while the part "well sometimes I am" is playing I'm just thinking about how my best friend died WITHOUT ME! And for the "well sometimes" at the end I was thinking of when he hit me with his skateboard. 
          
          
          The bitch had the nerve ok. He had the NERVE to die without me!! Like what the fuck?!?! And he hit me with his skateboard!!! Why? I dont know!!!!

savagehero

@princesspua14 Ikr!?! He has the nerve. The audacity  
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princesspua14

I’m so sorry
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savagehero

So there was a song playing when my mom, step dad and 2 brothers were in the car and it went like "Let me tell you a secret, about a fathers love " and after it said that I said out loud while we were in the parking lot "Its non existent" and burst out laughing at my own joke. My mom was looking at me like are you for real rn. The funny thing was that my step dad didn't say anything. 
          
          
          
          
          And thats on coping with dark humor

Killjoy1782

@savagehero it definitely is
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savagehero

@Killjoy1782 Ikr! Its a great coping method to. For me at least
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Killjoy1782

Ngl I love dark humor
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savagehero

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So I'm fucked. My step dad took my phone and looked at my messages and found my tik tok account. I didn't get in trouble for the account really but I feel bad because I had to blame my "friends" for some of the texts. Like I said something like she was talking shit and said it was my one friend who is homophobic and things she can say the n word. But if I told my parents the truth I would be dead. And it doesn't help that we got into a fight. My step dad always brings up the fact that my bio dad could care less about me and said and I quote
          
          Step dad" at least I don't overdose and it takes 6 times to revive me. 
          Me being me I said: it was 7 time actually. 
          
          They thought they were hitting a nerve and that I didn't know but my cousin told me. And my mom called me a whore and said that I would regret everything I ever said to her. I looked right at her and said "I live by a thing called no regrets. So no. I dont think I will. 
          
          Also I think they found out about me being not so straight as they thought. They went through my google history and found shit I didn't even search for. Like " how do I tell if my lesbian gf like likes me" like tf or girls kissing. And he showed me the time and I know it wasn't me because it was the 30 of June and it was his birthday and I wasn't really on my phone. And it was at like 8:04 in the morning. Like bitch I go to sleep at like 5 and dont wake up until 12. And there was more stuff about lesbians that I didn't search up. He asked me what my obsession with it was and I said idk. I'm just waiting for him to call me down to have a talk.

savagehero

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So if you ever have a son whats his nickname gonna be?
          
          Me:Nik
          Cousin:Oh Nicolas is a nice name
          Me:who said anything Nicolas?
          Cousin: then what are you gonna name him?
          Me: Niklaus 
          Cousin: this is why mom doesn't fucking love you

quarintine_life

@savagehero  ahh the facts of life
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savagehero

@quarintine_life Im unstable all day everyday
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quarintine_life

@savagehero  we are all mentally unstable at a point me on the middle of night
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savagehero

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I just fucking learned that my bio dad overdosed. It took them 7 time to revive him. Its sad that he's with a ugly ass woman who has 2 daughters yet he has one that he doesn't even care about. FUCK HIM!!!  Just yesterday I was thinking about how my own father broke my heart before a boy or girl ever had the fucking chance. My cousin watched a video of this shit. Im so fucking done. I'm done thinking that maybe he still wants me and that he's trying to see me. He's fucking not. He would rather get high than try to see me. I hate him. And this sounds fucked up but I still feel like he left because of me. That he didn't want me. Why doesn't he want me. Why. I thought he loved me. Turns out he loved the drugs more. 

savagehero

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@luvvillian Yep. And fucking voices
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luvvillian

@savagehero oh.. I'm very sorry 2 hear that.. just stay strong, u'll always have urself, books n music.. that's all u need..
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the_sadsider

@savagehero ....You can message me and talk to me if you would like.  we can rant about our biological dad's together. If you want to, anyways...
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savagehero

I just realized that I downloaded this app may 2019. It hasn't even been 2years yet. But I feel like ive had the app for years

savagehero

So my parents made me join at a small group for church and the preacher said "and if you have ever broken a rule of bible (or whatever like not to lie) you have broken all of them. Which makes you a homo". I looked at him and in my mind I was saying "How did he know?!"

B00ming

@savagehero lol ❤️
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savagehero

@B00ming Same tho
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B00ming

@savagehero yes 
            I want the ground to swallow me
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