hey my sweetest angel,
there really is no words to describe how much i miss you. sure we didn't talk everyday, but you were and still are one of my closest and realest best friends and ever since you left, i've had this small part of me missing. but i'm not writing you this because i want you to come back because i miss you. i'm writing this because i do miss you. so much. with every fiber in me. but i know you needed to for youself and i just wanted to say that i am very proud of you. proud that you were able to leave all of this and us behind to focus on yourself. i know it was hard given you held so many people close to your heart and we all loved each other in our little safe haven of a groupchat, but there comes a time where we all need to break away from this virtual escape and come to terms that no matter how much we want this to be our life, it's not reality. and as i'm writing you this, i myself have found some urge to leave all this and just focus on me. when will that time come for me? that i don't know, but whenever that may be, i want you to know that i am eternally grateful i got to know you and have you in my life because your existence was beyond precious to me and you have helped shape me into who i am even if you may think you didn't do much, you did. more than much and i just am smiling with tears rolling down my face because remembering you has always been one of my favorite things to do. i love you so much and though i ache to talk to you again, i just am happy that you're smiling more and doing your own thing. please never forget how much you mean to me, rain.
