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HOw do I mOve oN fRoM a bOy??
          
          
          I’ve been speaking to this boy for so long and I guess I just got comfortable?? Eventually he stopped talking to me out of the blue. One day he was sending me kisses and shit and the next day he’s begun something new with another girl. It hurt. I guess I just started to accept it when I saw them together, she hangs around in my group of friends and knew that I liked him and that we talked to each other but never even told me. I figured it out myself when I saw them together. Anyway I stopped begging God to give me another chance with him. I figured that if he’s going to do that to me and move on so quickly, why should I let him do it again??
          
          But I did. After things ended sour with her, he messaged me again. We began talking again and got really close. He talked to me one day at school and then again. He said he liked me. He wanted to meet up in the holidays. I don’t know if it was because I was nervous or maybe I felt like a fool for falling back in too easily. I never did meet up with him and I guess he took that as a bad sign. I tried to explain but I guess he thought he’d be better off without bothering. 
          
          The same thing happened again. One day he just stopped talking and we went back to be strangers. He’d occasionally pop up here and there which left me romanticising that maybe we could work something out. Maybe he’d like me again. 
          
          I found out the other day that he’s with another girl. It hurts. It really hurts. More than I thought that it would. I guess that’s expected but why aren’t I not surprised? I knew this would happen. And the thing is that I’m not actually sad, I just feel a bit disappointed that I wasn’t enough to make him stay.

_heartlessgirl_14

Screw him for playing with your emotions !!Its your turn to get out there and experience new things and new people .He’s using you as a safe spot because he knows as many times as he leaves you’ll be waiting for him , you didn’t do anything and your worth a lot more then what your giving yourself credit for.Your not to blame he is , he shouldn’t have the power to make you feel any less of yourself .He’s the problem not you !
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