littleboyimnida

have realized that the reason i give up on every story that has student studying comp sci / is a soft engineer is because writing is a form of escapism for me. yes, i love comp sci. yes, i love that it's my major. yes, i love my job. but writing lets me pretend i could be other things, lets me research other majors, lets me live other people's lives. 
          	
          	i want to be the one to accurately represent software engineers in books because we all know there's barely any accurate representation for them (no, we do not look at odd symbols and go oh! found the error, that's practically impossible, it's machine code. please, take like 5 minutes to research before you show me a hacker in a movie. and no, software engineer =/= hacker. also no, software engineering not only equal to artificial intelligence and cool graphics and robots and like holograms. that's the smaller part of it. no, we don't all have glasses, a lot of us are cool people with equivalently rich social lives — even if i'm not one of them — and there's a variety of us doing a variety of different things). thing is, it's hard to glamourize the normal software enggs. it's hard to glamourize the hours put into looking at the screen,  trying to find the one line of code breaking everything, or figuring out a better solution to a problem, or writing tests or moving something pixel by pixel until it looks right.
          	
          	but that's the truth. we don't work on robots or self driving cars all the time, but without us, the internet, the devices, any form of electricity you use would not look like it does.
          	
          	the point of this rant is — i'm tired of people looking down on the rest of us, and focusing on the robots, graphics and hackers. and i apologize i cannot be the one to bring about the change.
          	
          	maybe one day. i'm not going to stop trying <3 here's to all my stem people (and esp comp sci people out there) i love you. keep doing what you're doing, know you're acknowledged and appreciated.
          	
          	love y'all. sorry for the rant. bye!

littleboyimnida

have realized that the reason i give up on every story that has student studying comp sci / is a soft engineer is because writing is a form of escapism for me. yes, i love comp sci. yes, i love that it's my major. yes, i love my job. but writing lets me pretend i could be other things, lets me research other majors, lets me live other people's lives. 
          
          i want to be the one to accurately represent software engineers in books because we all know there's barely any accurate representation for them (no, we do not look at odd symbols and go oh! found the error, that's practically impossible, it's machine code. please, take like 5 minutes to research before you show me a hacker in a movie. and no, software engineer =/= hacker. also no, software engineering not only equal to artificial intelligence and cool graphics and robots and like holograms. that's the smaller part of it. no, we don't all have glasses, a lot of us are cool people with equivalently rich social lives — even if i'm not one of them — and there's a variety of us doing a variety of different things). thing is, it's hard to glamourize the normal software enggs. it's hard to glamourize the hours put into looking at the screen,  trying to find the one line of code breaking everything, or figuring out a better solution to a problem, or writing tests or moving something pixel by pixel until it looks right.
          
          but that's the truth. we don't work on robots or self driving cars all the time, but without us, the internet, the devices, any form of electricity you use would not look like it does.
          
          the point of this rant is — i'm tired of people looking down on the rest of us, and focusing on the robots, graphics and hackers. and i apologize i cannot be the one to bring about the change.
          
          maybe one day. i'm not going to stop trying <3 here's to all my stem people (and esp comp sci people out there) i love you. keep doing what you're doing, know you're acknowledged and appreciated.
          
          love y'all. sorry for the rant. bye!

littleboyimnida

so apparently i'm turning nineteen in a few hours lol how did that happen the last thing i remember was eighth grade and here we are, second year of college and still making the same stupid mistakes, only bearing bigger consequences.
          
          (this is a call for help. this user is going crazy over the fact that she's in her last year of teenage. the faint screaming you hear is probably her. honestly, take cover she's about to lose her mind.)

littleboyimnida

@TheShadowchronicles I hope you get time to read soon too <3 Honestly my uni handled it well, so physically I'm okay, but my mental health is a whole different question. 2020 has just not been a good year mentally for a lot of us, I hope it gets better. Take care of yourself and hope you ace your exams !
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TheShadowchronicles

@littleboyimnida I hope you have time soon! I've been buried under schoolwork and exam revision and haven't managed to read anything in about 3 or so months, so I feel you. I'm doing alright, I hope your college hasn't been hit too hard by covid! 
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littleboyimnida

@SorryThatIsIncorrect @TheShadowchronicles i hope you two have been well and safe <333
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littleboyimnida

just here to say i love na jaemin he really is the best boy and i just -- i cannot contain my love for him, he's so precious and sweet.

littleboyimnida

if anyone has watched the taiwanese drama someday or one day i invite you to cry with me because hell

littleboyimnida

and then yt recommended THIS to me and EVERY feeling i was trying to suppress exploded in double impact https://youtu.be/76VcvRTmJnw
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littleboyimnida

@toIkiens I KNOW RIGHT. i watched it in one night and literally could not stop crying, it ripped out my whole soul and threw it off a skyscraper.
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toIkiens

@littleboyimnida YES THIS DRAMA MAKES MY CRY SO HARD and it physically hurts my soul
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littleboyimnida

HIDEO TANAKA. let's discuss (i have not read wildcard yet, i have ominous guesses as to what will happen hence why i'm incredibly SCARED to read it too)
          
          because get this — i disagree that hideo is a true (SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER) villain. he has no evil intentions with what's he's planning to do, what he's not getting is the unprecedented repercussions of his actions on the very soul of humanity. he genuinely wants to do it for good, he's just misguided by his notions and strong memory from his past. he needs guidance, reassurance, a push in the right direction.
          
          not to be turned into a villain.
          
          and for some reason, if i'm right about my guess with what marie lu is going to do with wildcard, i am fearing the worst. and if that happens, i guarantee i will not leave my bed for days because i'd be depressed.
          
          hideo tanaka is a literally representation of an ideal guy. do you KNOW how hard it is to have that notion represented as a COMPUTER SCIENCE GENIUS? as a comp sci nerd, student and soft engg intern, this boy is the whole entire package for me, okay. do not TOUCH him. i will literally lose it if something happens to him.

littleboyimnida

so uh, i read that book that they call one of the saddest books of right now. also 720 pages. and just . . . if you know what i’m talking about and are thinking of reading it, here’s me telling you don’t. because it’s an emotional and psychological trauma to read it (as sinfully beautiful the writing and characters are), and you’ll be a different person coming out of the book than you were going in, and . . . you won’t like the new person. the new you will know things you were very well probably better off not knowing. it’s extremely triggering, even for someone like me who doesn’t have histories of most horrifying things mentioned in this book, and it’ll be worse if you do. just . . . don’t pick it up, if you can, because it’s hard to put down once you’ve started.

littleboyimnida

yeah. did not mention the name in the message in case someone decided to pick it up based on the name without reading my whole message because god i wouldn't recommend anyone reading that book, it's so triggering, it still haunts me. small things that happen have me thinking of it and it sends shivers down my spine
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whereagardenwas

@littleboyimnida are you talking about a little life by hanya? cuz yes that book made me WEEP
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littleboyimnida

hello, i have finally risen from the bangtan fever (it's been 24+ hours after the release of dynamite and hence i thought it was time to stop crying over it and just enjoy it). what i want to leave you with —
          
          SHINING IN THE CITY WITH A LITTLE FUNK AND SOUL,
          SO I'MA LIGHT IT UP LIKE DYNAMITE  
          
          love y'all and hope this song and bangtan filled your world with light 
          if you're an army or anyone who helped us stream — congratulations ! you've worked hard and 98M is crazy ! i know we all were hoping to hit that 100M mark, and we hit it a few minutes late (but the boys are still now the fastest to hit that mark), but we've got this and i'm so proud of you !
          
          that's it, keep streaming, we have weekly records to break <3

peanutbutterNotjelly

@littleboyimnida ngl, I did cry when they announced that we got 100M views :') and yes, the song itself makes any day better
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littleboyimnida

@peanutbutterNotjelly our views were counted !! i'm so so happy (we got 101.1M WOW) and yes, the comeback was amazing. their visuals were out of the world, the song was so refreshing and the boys looked just so happy doing it, and it made me happier !
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peanutbutterNotjelly

@littleboyimnida hi fellow army here :) 
            really wanted to reach the 100M mark but I'm still happy either way because this song was AMAZING, the visuals, the colors, everything was ugh, I'm all speechless. let's keep streaming then :) 
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littleboyimnida

also, once i'm done with finals this month, i'll officially get back into writing because it's been to long and now my heart yearns towards it again. not sure what i'd write, and if it'll be anything like my current books, but i do want to write.

littleboyimnida

. . . lady midnight. why. why would clare do that to me knowing full well i'm absolutely in love with julian blackthorn? he deserves the whole freaking world, he's had enough pain to last him several lifetimes. WHY would you do that to him. just, why?

qixing

@littleboyimnida oh my GODS lady midnight was all kinds of pain and so was that whole series ngl
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TheShadowchronicles

@littleboyimnida I don't know, she reminded me a little too much of Jace. I only like her wit and her lust for revenge, and I liked how she felt after she got it. It seemed pretty realistic, you know? I'm still kind of mad about how she involved Mark in their relationship, though. 
            Back to Julian. The fact that he did that to his dad at that age because he had to— I can't even imagine the trauma he must be going through. And the guy just HAD to go and fall in love with his parabatai, like he isn't suffering enough. Also, when it was revealed that he'd been doing Arthur's job, I was so upset. He's been handling so much for so long, my boy deserves a break. 
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littleboyimnida

@TheShadowchronicles i'm so grateful for my bookstagram friends i RAGED over how julian does not deserve any pain for HOURS and they just listened 
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littleboyimnida

was going through my last year's notes to determine which i can recycle and i found this written on the margin of a rough sheet i was using for a test "woman it up, please. this cannot kill you, you witch." and um wow okay why am i so passive aggressive towards myself but i FELT that.

littleboyimnida

@TheShadowchronicles lmao i'm usually not passive aggressive but whenever i feel anxiety hit me, these sort of notes increase.
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TheShadowchronicles

@littleboyimnida I do something similar in my notes app. It's always kind of weird finding those. :D
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