khalboyking

(1/??) abra cadabra need less anxiety and more viagra 
          	
          	I’m rewatching supernatural and i’m on season three....i told myself i’m 22 and married and an adult now and i wont cry......i cried in every big and small sad scene. 
          	
          	I am a supernatural(TM) bitch thru and thru
          	
          	how are you this week? genuinely, though. don’t lie to me. I’ve had 2 panic attacks this week and i’m trying my hardest to eat 3 meals a day but it’s been really tough. like, omg. it’s not a big deal! just eat three meals!!!!! but Cant. dont care enough about myself and it’s exhausting, struggling with the same things I used to as a teenager. see? i spilled the beans, ur turn. 

khalboyking

@StupidPocky  
          	  
          	  
          	  dearest Nora, I’m so sorry 
          	  I’ve been there before and it’s no party 
          	  I can offer you kind words 
          	  But god I worry 
          	  I know you hear it a lot and
          	   all our words together 
          	   just get blurry 
          	  
          	  
          	  So here’s something new: take this rhyme 
          	  And maybe read it one time 
          	  When you feel like life’s just bleh 
          	  Or when you’re dying inside 
          	  
          	  It’s really a story 
          	  Of a girl, who like yourself, 
          	  Has a smile so shy and pretty 
          	  
          	  But when you look closer…
          	  She’s a lot older, 
          	  that much you can tell 
          	  Oh god, still quoting Crowley at family dinner 
          	  “Bluddy hell!” 
          	  
          	  You can see her laughing, enjoying, smiling 
          	  You can tell it’s you, from the future or something 
          	  Doing all the things you can’t seem to do 
          	  
          	  She turns to you suddenly in this wild weird dream 
          	  
          	  Looks into your eyes 
          	  And hers, they look familiar but new
          	  playful but wise. 
          	  
          	  “Please,” you (she??) says, “Don’t do it.
          	  Don’t do it today. 
          	  Don’t do it tomorrow.
          	  Don’t do it in December. 
          	  Don’t do it in June. 
          	  Don’t do it for them. 
          	  Don’t do it for you.
          	  Don’t do it next year. 
          	  Then don’t do it again.”
          	  
          	  
          	  I have to do my laundry, but I mean it Nora. 
          	  I wrote this out right now for you because we don’t know each other 
          	  And we probably never will, but when the voice says “no one cares, and just do it” u can say they care and we do, because I’m a stranger and I’m not special there are millions like me and u know it. Take care 
          	  
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StupidPocky

That must be tough. My week has been sucky. Less sleep, less eating and I can barely go a day without thinking of ending it all, but supernatural has kept me going. So I’m going to keep fighting, and you should too. 
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khalboyking

(1/??) abra cadabra need less anxiety and more viagra 
          
          I’m rewatching supernatural and i’m on season three....i told myself i’m 22 and married and an adult now and i wont cry......i cried in every big and small sad scene. 
          
          I am a supernatural(TM) bitch thru and thru
          
          how are you this week? genuinely, though. don’t lie to me. I’ve had 2 panic attacks this week and i’m trying my hardest to eat 3 meals a day but it’s been really tough. like, omg. it’s not a big deal! just eat three meals!!!!! but Cant. dont care enough about myself and it’s exhausting, struggling with the same things I used to as a teenager. see? i spilled the beans, ur turn. 

khalboyking

@StupidPocky  
            
            
            dearest Nora, I’m so sorry 
            I’ve been there before and it’s no party 
            I can offer you kind words 
            But god I worry 
            I know you hear it a lot and
             all our words together 
             just get blurry 
            
            
            So here’s something new: take this rhyme 
            And maybe read it one time 
            When you feel like life’s just bleh 
            Or when you’re dying inside 
            
            It’s really a story 
            Of a girl, who like yourself, 
            Has a smile so shy and pretty 
            
            But when you look closer…
            She’s a lot older, 
            that much you can tell 
            Oh god, still quoting Crowley at family dinner 
            “Bluddy hell!” 
            
            You can see her laughing, enjoying, smiling 
            You can tell it’s you, from the future or something 
            Doing all the things you can’t seem to do 
            
            She turns to you suddenly in this wild weird dream 
            
            Looks into your eyes 
            And hers, they look familiar but new
            playful but wise. 
            
            “Please,” you (she??) says, “Don’t do it.
            Don’t do it today. 
            Don’t do it tomorrow.
            Don’t do it in December. 
            Don’t do it in June. 
            Don’t do it for them. 
            Don’t do it for you.
            Don’t do it next year. 
            Then don’t do it again.”
            
            
            I have to do my laundry, but I mean it Nora. 
            I wrote this out right now for you because we don’t know each other 
            And we probably never will, but when the voice says “no one cares, and just do it” u can say they care and we do, because I’m a stranger and I’m not special there are millions like me and u know it. Take care 
            
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StupidPocky

That must be tough. My week has been sucky. Less sleep, less eating and I can barely go a day without thinking of ending it all, but supernatural has kept me going. So I’m going to keep fighting, and you should too. 
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StupidPocky

I have just started re-reading heaven's child and now I can't stop reading it over and over again. It's so good! 

khalboyking

@StupidPocky thank you so much <3 sure I don't write it anymore but when I was a wee teenager I remember I poured my heart and soul into it so I sincerely appreciate this <3 pocky is also my favorite
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Ximex24

You. Are. An. Amazing. Writer. Just forget the fact that you started your book young and that you grew and went to college and stuff. You are able to recreate the characters of SPN soooooo weeelllll, you understand them, their dialogue, their persona, their relationships with one another. PLUS you created your own character, who is strong enough in personality, charisma, and with enough character-development to STAND ON THEIR OWN! Thats so rare for fanfics!! You are too talented to be serving people behind a counter :) but you are valid and your life will resolve to your own happiness!!

khalboyking

Hello, one day maybe I might publish a book. And if I’m lucky enough to have u still follow me, and you find out that I publish a book and I say something like I want to thank the people who supported me, I want you to know that 100% you are on of those people. You have no idea how much this message means to me. Thank you ❤️ @Ximex24
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alloivera

So I've written and rewritten this comment like.. four times now because I'm weird about talking to people. but anyway, the general message is, I absolutely love your writing and, uh yeah. Cool. Coolio. Keep it up ✋

khalboyking

no ur amazing
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alloivera

oh my god you answered. This is like a meet and greet with my favorite author... uh anyway, thank you for making me feel really special right now. You're amazing. :-D    <<--hope that shows up.
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khalboyking

you beautiful, beautiful person. literally the light of my life right now, thank you. i have NOTHING going for me rn and this just made my whole week <3
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_Keep-Dreaming_

You absolutely have to update Heavens child. Seriously i dont know if i can live without knowing what happens next. It is just so amazing