˗ˏˋ sam. ´ˎ˗

i'm bout to put discontinued in the title of the book because i literally cant do this anymore. i love each and every one of yall but at least every month i'm reminded that i never finished the book and quite honestly i don't think i ever will.
          
          that book was made in the darkest period of my life. i was falling out of love with my mentally abusive ex, i was having sexuality complications, and i was getting ready for my mothers surgery in february which she still is recovering from, mind you.
          
          i am autistic and a college student. my focus has been on my personal life for these last few months and mentally i have been doing /so/ much better when i'm not being harassed to put out another chapter.
          
          i already feel more comfortable with my work on tumblr seeing as i do not get messaged every day about my writing, and AO3 looks more and more tempting every day.
          
          like i said, i love y'all. but boundaries need to be set and i shouldn't have to be explaining /why/ i havent written anything in half a year.
          
          thanks.

cant believe im actually attempting to write another fic... lord.

Hello,
          
          Most people on my most recent chapter are asking for an update -- I'd be happy to do so.. if I wasn't on a hiatus and focused on my personal life right now.
          As much as I love writing, it's not my main focus. I appreciate the love and support each one of you has given me, it's truly amazing; updates will be slow from now on until I'm ready to come back to frequently writing Tish. I had a lot more freetime back then than I do now. New year, new me ig LMFAO.
          
          I'm now going to answer questions.
          
          "Why aren't you updating as much?"
          I'm in the process of doing adult chores. Wish me luck on my application to work at a movies, video games and music store.
          
          "Will you ever finish Secret Muse?"
          Hopefully. None of y'all know this, but I used to be a popular writer on here back in 2018 for Chadwick Boseman, I was horrible at updating that book and quite honestly my updating schedule is still bad. ☠️
          
          "Have you moved on from Letitia?"
          Yes.. and no? I have autism and possible ADHD, so on one hand my interests can change like rapid fire, and on the other, I can be stuck with an interest for YEARS and be gone; then they can come back and stick around for a little bit more (so for example, I had a Weird Al obsession 10 years ago and now it's back.)
          I'm still into Letitia but it's just not as hectic as it was now, ever since the fandom sent Kehlani death threats I've been distant.
          
          "Have you considered writing any other cast member/writing a character rather than a real person?"
          First of all.. be on the lookout for the first one, second of all-- yes, but this is mainly my RPF account, I hate the RPF discourse on Tumblr, truly, so I avoid it. Check out my Tumblr for my Shuri fics. (I created HBCU!Shuri and I suck at updating on there too lol.)
          
          "If you were gonna write a new fic today, who would it be?"
          "Weird Al" Yankovic x blk!OC. Absolutely nobody asked this question, I just wanted to mention this.
          
          "Are you doing okay?"
          I'm doing the best I can. :)

rest in power fred white.

20k reads... aaaahhh now i really gotta get out of my writers block.. thank yall sm fr. ♡

i finally hit 1k votes after so long, so many ghost readers and not enough voters :/ i appreciate each and everyone of yall tho!!

the way kehlani was all up on my wife ... I WAS LITERALLY GONNA PUT SOMETHING LIKE THAT IN THE FIC BUT WITH SOUL AND MY DREAM BECAME A REALITY IM CRYING LIKE????

your theme is so aesthetically pleasing it makes me want to cry

TEN THOUSAND READS HOLY SHIT THANK YALL SO MUCH WTF

happy birthday to my heart. we will never forget the contributions you made to black cinema, and you will always be remembered as thurgood marshall, as james brown, as jackie robinson, as andre davis, and as t'challa udaku, the black panther. i'll love you forever and always, chadwick. ♡