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Is it just,, gay girl culture to fall in love with your bestfriend who is straight and has a boyfriend? Only to tell her and then violently tell her to "not think too much into it" because you are terrified to accidentally run her away and then feel the unrequited love constantly stabbing you in the heart when she so much as lays her head on your shoulder because you guys are still bestfriends?
          	
          	Fuck feelings,,
          	I have no idea what a healthy relationship is or how to aquire one healthily. I just care so much that I don't want to fuck things up with someone I may or may not ever find because I'm stuck on someone I quite literally can't have??
          	It's nice to start as friends but what if it isn't reciprocated and you lose that friend like holy shit,, maybe if my ass wouldn't care about people so hard, even as friends, I could go around like everyone else and try things out with people but NO! I am so scared of rejection because I don't want to experience the heart ache that follows because that just might be the thing to fuck my world, got so much shit to deal with. How will I be able to keep my partner happy if I'm unable to have a conversation with them because I'm feeling overwhelmed by shit we can't control? Always venting, no solutions, and it's always the topic? Sure we can talk about other things but what does that fix? I'm running myself into a brick wall?? I just?? I'm unfit for a relationship but when will it get better? When will I FINALLY be ready?? You always hear about the pool getting smaller with age,, how long is too long? How do I work on myself when I DONT KNOW WHAT TO WORK ON??
          	
          	Vent over,, shit,,,

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@censoredpotato hhhhh, wish I could just vent this to someone but nah,, lets post it on social media because nobody actually knows who you are and so they can't really tell everyone you know that you have emotional issues and ya know,,, it's nice..
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Is it just,, gay girl culture to fall in love with your bestfriend who is straight and has a boyfriend? Only to tell her and then violently tell her to "not think too much into it" because you are terrified to accidentally run her away and then feel the unrequited love constantly stabbing you in the heart when she so much as lays her head on your shoulder because you guys are still bestfriends?
          
          Fuck feelings,,
          I have no idea what a healthy relationship is or how to aquire one healthily. I just care so much that I don't want to fuck things up with someone I may or may not ever find because I'm stuck on someone I quite literally can't have??
          It's nice to start as friends but what if it isn't reciprocated and you lose that friend like holy shit,, maybe if my ass wouldn't care about people so hard, even as friends, I could go around like everyone else and try things out with people but NO! I am so scared of rejection because I don't want to experience the heart ache that follows because that just might be the thing to fuck my world, got so much shit to deal with. How will I be able to keep my partner happy if I'm unable to have a conversation with them because I'm feeling overwhelmed by shit we can't control? Always venting, no solutions, and it's always the topic? Sure we can talk about other things but what does that fix? I'm running myself into a brick wall?? I just?? I'm unfit for a relationship but when will it get better? When will I FINALLY be ready?? You always hear about the pool getting smaller with age,, how long is too long? How do I work on myself when I DONT KNOW WHAT TO WORK ON??
          
          Vent over,, shit,,,

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@censoredpotato hhhhh, wish I could just vent this to someone but nah,, lets post it on social media because nobody actually knows who you are and so they can't really tell everyone you know that you have emotional issues and ya know,,, it's nice..
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BRO,,,
          WHEREAREALLOFTHEGENDERBENDS
          I WANT MY GIRLS!!! MY BABES!! MY SWEET LADIES!!! MY DYKE AND FEMMES!!! MY STRONG PROTAGONIST AND SMOKING HOT VILLAINS!!! ALL MY LOVING GIRLS WHO HOLD HANDS AND EAT ICE CREAM WHILE BOOPING SOME ON EACH OTHER'S NOSES!!! GIRLS!!!

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I just want to tell you how shook I was reading that out of context, I was like, "???? I mean, Okay??? Lol!"
            But yes,
            I love sosig. But Tacos are also an option~
            ;3c
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@censoredpotato  I like sausage too much.
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@censoredpotato bro, my Emojis said "Fuck outta here" and skeeted.
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Twenty Eight in Archive,, I cry. (I only put books that haven't been updated in like,, forever, in my archive)

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New Year, grand Tea. Facts: Wattpad has nothing left to offer for reads, my favs are moving on or have grown out of the fandom/writing fanfics (not that I'm mad, it's good for them to branch out or just move on to bigger and better things). I've read all of the stories I could stomach. (I'm such a terrible critique on Grammer and shit to a fault) I may be back someday with a new fandom or I may just forget this app even existed in the first place. Or I'll come back at some point to check up on my reads for updates n shit. But as far as I'm concerned, I'm out. TOODLES!