I'm cruel to people and I swear that's not my intention. I'm afraid of being like this forever, I'm not a bad person, I swear not, I'm just trying my best. I always end up alone and I can never escape it.
I'm cruel to people and I swear that's not my intention. I'm afraid of being like this forever, I'm not a bad person, I swear not, I'm just trying my best. I always end up alone and I can never escape it.
alright, then. I can keep what's left, the rest of what he offers to someone else. I will be content with smiles & restrained kindnesses & while he offers me the basics I will pray every night that he will be well and safe & full of that life that I love & am so passionate about
creating scenarios that aren't real, memories of a life that never was and dreaming and wishing for things that will never happen. full of expectations
he is shy, silent. it reminds me of a day of rain and fresh water after dry days in the desert. it feels like a cold day where you can only leave the house fully dressed from head to toe, but it warms my heart like the hottest day of summer. I love him
I hug you. every night, in my imagination. I smell you, the tip of my nose in the crook of your neck. you and me, this eternal moment, this life never lived, a memory that never existed. a dream never realized.