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I wish to wish you our pretty 19:01's everyday because it's our date, our day and I think no matter what happens,both of us on the 19th of any month would be thinking about it undoubtedly. I've been scrolling through your letters all night and ever since the clock struck 12 I've been rereading the letter of when you first asked me out, and how it was shaped and worded to the even last drop of perfection. you're what made this, made me perfect. I wanted to post this at 19:01 because I wanted it to be there at a time that never ends for either of us. remembering little details of our relationship make me smile, sometime so simple as listening to songs or watching the stars or noori remember when we had that cafe date, it was so precious and I dreamt about taking you there. this makes me feel so hollow and every minute you're gone I start missing you, I miss how attached I could get to you without fearing anything, how i could show you sides of me while clinging onto you for love and support. how your lips curled to know their way against mine and also my body, enters scissor emoji. I feel so hesitant on what we're doing because when you stop at a time like this to write your letter and recollect everything you did together the only thought that comes in your mind is, what if I regret this. and I feel like it's a thought that also makes me be aware that whatever happens between us,in the end I would always wanna be yours and have you as mine. it sucks not being able to write letters and tell you how I feel, to not wake up to your notification or have you not wake up to mine ): it's the worst feeling because my heart refuses to let go every part with you. I want to run but with you, I want to fall but for you and most importantly I want to pick myself up and explore this while I hold your hand tightly to remind myself that let hell crash and burn but noori and ara will never be seperated. because meri jaan, this isn't just love. It's destiny, because you're my farishta.
I do feel like I still have a lot to say, because the thought of not being able to write this everyday is scary and to not wake up to your letters.. is scarier because they were the highlight of my day. but with changing everything I suppose this would be changing too. I want to let you know that there has been several times that I've not been a great lover to you, but I do want to tell you that if at any moment I felt that, I just looked at you and thought to myself that no, I must try everything for this man because he's worth the world to me. and if you ask me now too that would I try again, I'd say yes with no hesitancy and run towards you because no matter the clashes or what we go through, I love you. our love was so pure it seemed as if eros handmade it himself. before having to end this letter I want to say that, one day when we're feeling better again. i will gladly spend my life gushing about butterscotch ice cream, kissing your perfect lips and act gay & in love till death parts us. I lover you meri noori, you were the most beautiful blessing i've ever received. pushes baby's hair back, blows on your forehead and kisses it. my love for you will never falter and I vow to love you more and more every single day. I love you my little fairy calico. I love you more than life but fortunately you're life so nothing can be greater than that.