ahouseonfire

Sorry I didn't post on Saturday. I don't remember if I posted last week either. Things have been hectic over here. Don't worry, I'll be posting multiple today.

ahouseonfire

Sorry I didn't post on Saturday. I don't remember if I posted last week either. Things have been hectic over here. Don't worry, I'll be posting multiple today.

ahouseonfire

So there was a poem in The Stars Whisper that I've decided not to post. I'm not sure I want to continue the story at all. I've been losing confidence in my poetry lately, because professional poetry isn't meant to be like a diary. And I know that book isn't meant to be professional, but I know it isn't my best work. And it likely never will be. I want to focus on learning to write poetry for a wider audience. This is starting to feel like bad poetry to me and I know I can write better.
          
          Since it's more like a diary and I've been sharing it for personal reasons, I might decide to continue it. I don't think I'll ever take it down. I'll definitely never be deleting it. But I don't think I'll be updating for a while. I need to focus on recovering my confidence in my writing so that I can improve my writing as a whole. 
          
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ahouseonfire

p.s. I'll still be online. You can pm me and contact me from this message board. And I'll probably be around reading stories and stuff. I just won't be posting.
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ahouseonfire

I need time to build confidence in myself and in my writing. I need time to answer these questions for myself so that I can give you better content.
            
            I'll be taking a hiatus while I work this out. I've taken a lot of them, and this will probably be the longest of them all. But I really need this time off.
            
            Thank you for understanding. I promise I'll be back. Nothing could keep me away forever.
            
            See ya! <3
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ahouseonfire

All of these points make a lot of sense, and I want to think about these questions as well. Even if I don't make a penny from my work, if I can't answer these questions, then I won't be writing to my full potential. If I'm too afraid to be understood, then no one will understand my work, and I won't be writing to my full potential. I'll only be shouting nonsense into the void.
            
            This poem I can't bring myself to publish only reinforces this. It reveals the most about me out of all my poems, and it doesn't even tell the full story. It leaves out important details, very crucial details. And still contains enough that I'm too afraid to release it into the world. The only person I've had the guts to show it to is my best friend, who already knows the full story. It's not okay that I can't bare my soul with what I write.
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ahouseonfire

I'll definitely be busy tomorrow, so I'm paying tomorrow's post for The Stars Whisper today. I also recently got two part time jobs, so updates may be skipped or postponed while schedules are figured out. The update schedule will likely change once everything is settled.

ahouseonfire

I just read some online articles saying good poetry is universal. But mine definitely isn't. So I guess my poetry isn't good?
          
          I mostly write poetry for myself, and rarely tackle political or universal issues. I post it here because the point of writing poetry, for me, is to get the stuff that bothers me out of me and onto paper. It doesn't feel like the paper quite hears me, so I post it online. It's like anonymously sharing a diary purposely written to be vague.
          
          But does that make it bad?
          
          Is good poetry universal, or is it poetry that successfully serves its purpose? Is it okay for it to call up images that an outsider may not fully understand, or is that fine if you didn't intend for them to understand it? If having an outsider be unable to interpret it the way that you do is the point, and you have achieved this goal?
          
          It makes me wonder what makes poetry good. I always thought it was when the poem was deeply thought about, and it serves its purpose, that it is a good poem. But I guess not?
          
          I'll admit that I've posted some very bad poetry here. Very old poetry. Sometimes just as filler. But according to this definition of poetry needing to universally apply to everyone, most of my poems are bad.
          
          I think I need a second opinion... What do you guys think?

ahouseonfire

No one replied to this. How sad...
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ahouseonfire

I have decided to end Dispel My Fear. I'm not interested in continuing it. I don't know if I'll ever post another book of short stories because most of my short stories aren't connected. I'll be sure to announce it if I do. Thank you to anyone who read that book.

ahouseonfire

I just remembered I had one in the works a while back. I haven't worked on it since I lost computer access the first time last winter. I don't know how long it will take me to have it ready to post though, so it might be months from now before it's released.
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ahouseonfire

Felt like posting today, so I updated The Stars Whisper. Don't worry, there'll still be an update on Saturday.

ahouseonfire

Sorry I forgot the update, guys. Totally forgot and then when I woke up today life threw me another curveball. Updating now.