PleaseCloseMyD00r

I'm seeing all your messages and comments. I now have somewhere to live again, and hopefully things will settle down for me so that I can feel comfortable enough to write.

madlyLovU

@PleaseCloseMyD00r things will get better soon.. just have faith... see how we all still "kicking" after a year of pandemic going on due to Covid... everyone is being stronger and self care.. love is still around for family and friends.. even we cant meet up or see each other, we still can text and chat here as long as u don't mind us being annoying.. i make frens here in wattpad and also in some games... so, stay safe n take care... u still haf all of us here if u want to rant... god bless u and ur family... take ur time and write.. writing require lots of energy to think and think... rest well my fren. good work come after a good rest... :)
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Aw71108

@PleaseCloseMyD00r I'm sorry dude Ó,╭╮Ò, I wish I could help but I'm no where close to you so that's pretty much impossible. I'm glad your on your feet again even if it's painful 
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PleaseCloseMyD00r

I'm seeing all your messages and comments. I now have somewhere to live again, and hopefully things will settle down for me so that I can feel comfortable enough to write.

madlyLovU

@PleaseCloseMyD00r things will get better soon.. just have faith... see how we all still "kicking" after a year of pandemic going on due to Covid... everyone is being stronger and self care.. love is still around for family and friends.. even we cant meet up or see each other, we still can text and chat here as long as u don't mind us being annoying.. i make frens here in wattpad and also in some games... so, stay safe n take care... u still haf all of us here if u want to rant... god bless u and ur family... take ur time and write.. writing require lots of energy to think and think... rest well my fren. good work come after a good rest... :)
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Aw71108

@PleaseCloseMyD00r I'm sorry dude Ó,╭╮Ò, I wish I could help but I'm no where close to you so that's pretty much impossible. I'm glad your on your feet again even if it's painful 
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PleaseCloseMyD00r

This past week has been so hard. I'm being evicted along with my 4 siblings. I still haven't found a place to live, and we have to be out Monday morning. My parents are officially splitting up so my dad will not be coming with us, making me the only income in our house. I had gotten her a job, which she already lost, in effort to help her get away from him. This caused them to decide to split. He says he'll give us money, but I seriously foresee problems with that. People are spending their stimulus money on fast food so business has picked up majorly and I've had to work harder. Everything just feels like it's falling apart. I can't sleep or eat much because I'm worrying so much. I already have a panic disorder that causes me to have heart palpitations late into the night. Then there's my depression and the sinking feeling that this is all my fault I am carrying around.
          
          Thank you for reading my vent.

Mad_wolf6446

@PleaseCloseMyD00r, not everything you believe that is your fault is actually your your fault
            It isn't your fault that everything is falling apart 
            Most time things get bad for your life to get better so just hand on and trust that you and everyone else that you love will be better
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Aw71108

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@PleaseCloseMyD00r I'm sorry bud, I hope things get better but the depression will never go, you just gotta hang on in this shit show because in the end it's worth the memories
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sluttyKlutz

@PleaseCloseMyD00r things always get better sweetheart just believe
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PleaseCloseMyD00r

Customer says something along the lines of "habla espanol" and I was just like sir I'm sorry i can't even speak English properly :(

AlodieSage

@PleaseCloseMyD00r only one language is necessary in moments like those.... Love, but adding alcohol always helps lol
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PleaseCloseMyD00r

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@user46845688 I was sitting here earlier with a Cuban, Pakistani, and myself. I said well fuck this is boring none of us are fluent enough to talk to one another :( 
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AlodieSage

@PleaseCloseMyD00r I felt this in my soul. ❤️ I'm right there with you. 
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PleaseCloseMyD00r

Y'all ATLA universe is getting a movie??? AHHH

Aw71108

@PleaseCloseMyD00r everytime I open wattpad it's around midnight and I'm usually in my drug state of mind because I need sleep so yeeeeeeeeeee
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PleaseCloseMyD00r

@Aw71108 Avatar The Last Airbender is coming out with a new movie made by the original creators
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Aw71108

@PleaseCloseMyD00r whaaaaa???? I'm so confused.........................
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PleaseCloseMyD00r

Not @ the fact that I mentioned I'd been in a fight- so now people want to fight me. Bruh like? Bully my friends like the last b*tch and I will.

Aw71108

@PleaseCloseMyD00r da fu, das messed up
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PleaseCloseMyD00r

@Aw71108 Lol, life wants me I Spain without the S 
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Aw71108

@PleaseCloseMyD00r dude you got some bad luck or something, you should take a break, also people are assholios
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PleaseCloseMyD00r

I'm feeling a bit better today. I finished off what medicine I had, and got prescribed more. Bye bye to my credit. But at least I'm feeling okay now. The polar vortex is gone too, so it was back to 70° today, thank goodness. I even went for a walk. Still can't go back to work tho :( 

PleaseCloseMyD00r

Let's play a game! Am I feeling extremely detached and suicidal because I walked out of my job and my depression has swallowed me whole because I feel like a failure- Orrr, is it because I'm emotionally detaching myself because if I don't I will start bawling because I'm currently having to take Ibuprofen and Tylenol one hour apart to stop the throbbing pain in my mouth from a toothache.

WorthHope

@PleaseCloseMyD00r what kind of service they have there?...gosh! Try mefenamic and don’t try any other medicine. You might overdose yourself and might get worser. 
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PleaseCloseMyD00r

@WorthHope Dentists want payment upfront before they'll do anything, an ER will tack on a 2K bill just for a nurse practitioner to look at my tooth and go "mmhm" when all I want are antibiotics and not pain pills. And like I alluded to earlier. Dying in my bed seems like a good idea to me. Infections eventually spread. I'm currently confused as to wether these intrusive thoughts are being caused by me shutting down because of the pain, or I'm entering another downfall.
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WorthHope

@PleaseCloseMyD00r did u try mefenamic acid? If it really hurt a lot, I suggest u need to go to the dentist.
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