NEO_STRAY_CULTUREKID

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone! I hope you guys have an amazing day, make sure to keep your head high today and just remember that you are all loved in every way, shape, and form! No matter what's happening in your life, just know people are thankful for you

NEO_STRAY_CULTUREKID

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone! I hope you guys have an amazing day, make sure to keep your head high today and just remember that you are all loved in every way, shape, and form! No matter what's happening in your life, just know people are thankful for you

NEO_STRAY_CULTUREKID

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          also, I had the biggest breakdown last night

NEO_STRAY_CULTUREKID

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mentally getting better, u h m, made a bold move and saved up for new hair dye....imma do neon green highlights...see how that goes. If i don't like it, imma make'em pink. this is how i'm coping with my feelings. School and home life have gotten me so fucked up, so imma TRY to make myself happy!

NEO_STRAY_CULTUREKID

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God, yet another rant. This time, its about my pronouns. I've changed my pronouns a while back and literally NO ONE has respected them whatsoever. Like I totally understand if it something you're not used to, but don't push aside my request. Try to learn them for my sake, because honestly, I know it sounds weird but hearing she/her in a sentence that involves me makes me uncomfortable. That's not who I am, and I cannot stress it enough! Some people have brushed it off when I try correcting them, but I seriously don't feel comfortable identifying as a female. When I went to school last week to take the PSAT'S it asked me what my gender was, THE FUCKING TEST DIDN'T EVEN START BUT I WAS STUCK ON MY GENDER FOR A GOOD TWENTY MINUTES! I asked the teacher if I could put what I identify as, for my gender, and this bitch looks me in the eyes and goes, "yeah, so basically you fill in the circle where it says female." U h m , ma'am , you really thought you'd be able to tell me what to circle? Think again! (I ended up circling female because I didn't wanna hear her opinionated ass ) 
          
          God, I love coming here to share my issues with the internet, makes me feel so much better......U_U

NEO_STRAY_CULTUREKID

@Mochichimmy she isn't my teacher, she's the teacher I had gotten assigned to for the test. Thank god, though!
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Mochichimmy

@NEO_STRAY_CULTUREKID you're teacher is a bitch, I'm sorry
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NEO_STRAY_CULTUREKID

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I've been thinking alot lately,and I've come to the conclusion that mentally, I am not okay. I'm failing in school and in life, my mom is on top of me all the time now because she doesn't want a highschool failure in her home. My mental state had effected my home life and I think it's pretty fucked up. I wanna talk about it with someone but she's taken all of my electronics (minus my school computer)she's basically separating me from talking to anybody because she thinks that doing that is gunna make me work harder. I'm not motivated at all. I'm stuck as a person. I'm lost. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I've had no no thoughts for awhile,but i don't wanna hurt myself. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!!!!!!

Mochichimmy

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Mochichimmy

@NEO_STRAY_CULTUREKID You are not alone. I have the same problem . My mum doesn't allow me to talk to my friends and family, she's always sitting in my room and gives me 0% privacy. I seriously got so angry once that I ran way from home, but I couldn't because that very day, my grandmother ( father's side ) passed away, and I'll be honest, I didn't really care cuz she wasn't nice AT ALL, she and her husband were probably the meanest and most selfish people on earth. You see, my mother is actually a teacher, so there is a lot of pressure, but these days, she isn't at home much cuz she has to go to her school so I'm home alone most of the time. Sometimes I feel cut off from the world, and I can't bear the feeling. I rarely talk with people and my anxiety doesn't help at all. I'm not used to crowds that much. I have a VERY low self esteem and I can't even bear The thought of going outside, it feels like everyone's eyes are on me and they are judging me. If someone is looking in my direction and they smile and laugh, I automatically feel like they are laughing at me. I desperately try to stop this but I can't :(((((
            
            
            
            Hope this made you feel better. If you need any help or you want to rant, then feel free to message me. I'd love to hear from you 
            
            
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NEO_STRAY_CULTUREKID

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so, I'm currently triggered. I've honestly lost myself and who I really am, and i've somewhat come to the conclusion, and i decided to tell my friends about it. it started with the one I trusted the most and felt most comfortable with. She was very accepting with my newly found pronouns and said she would make it her job to remember. Now, i had hoped for the same reaction from my other friends, but all i got was a "tHaTs kInDa DuMb. sO iNsTeAd oF bEiNg A hE oR sHe, yOuR a ThEy?" I honestly didn't have much to say to that, so our call got VERY quiet. HE THEN PROCEEDS TO ASK, "is trans a mental disorder-"
          
          SIR
          
          
          
          
          SAY THAT DUMB SHIT AGAIN!
          
          i honestly shouldn't have told him, but it is what it is. Lets hope he respect's my wishes.

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@NEO_STRAY_CULTUREKID thank you, and I totally agree
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NEO_STRAY_CULTUREKID

@interludeshadow_00 awwwww, thank you! I wish nothing for the best for you...I know it might be hard to stay closeted, just keep your head high and flaunt it! At the end of the day, its who you are and no one should have a say in it!
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