AnimeWriter

I don't ask for friends, I am fine when I'm alone. When I have two good friends, I'm more than happy. But if they leave, I feel like a third wheel. The only thing I feel is confusion.

If I am home, I'm always in my room. I like the silence. I do my homework, or am on the internet. I don't like to be bothered, I would gladly be invisible sometimes.

There's my dad, who is angry towards my mom. If he is doing crazy against my mother, I can't face him. He might be my dad, but he does nothing for me. If I can't pay my college, I'll blame it all on him, since he doesn't want to give the money to mom. 

I love my elder sister and brother, they're kind and never make me feel unwanted. I'm always having much fun with them. I was able to make fake smiles for 8 long years. I was getting bullied, but I didn't even know what they did since it was normal for me. Until recently, when my mother found out. When I met them later, I realized I was getting bullied.

I love my animals. They are cute. If I feel sad, they make me happy. I love to read and to write. Anime is my life. However, my 'friends' make jokes about it. I'm still waiting for that one person, that will never leave my side. I don't want him or her to be my lover. Love always ends up into broken relationships. 

I'm not depressed or lying when I tell this, this is my life. I'm not crying anymore for losing friends. Not for when my mom is mad at me. I'm not crying for pity. People always do nice to you, whenever you cry. I want them to be themselves to me.

I may sound miserable, but actually, this life, makes me strong. Not physically, but mentally. I don't care about the people who abandon me. But I will be there for the ones I love the most. I will be there for whoever needs me. 

I love my life, I couldn't wish for a better one, to be honest. I'm not being depressed, this is my own reality. It has ups and downs. I don't say I'm fine when I'm not. Whatever comes in your way, face it. You'll be stronger than before!