Iori_kei

Heyo peeps, finally a new chapter is up. I hope you guys enjoy this rocky ride!
          	I just published "49| I like you" of my story "Fly High | LGBT". https://my.w.tt/KZJt42fZG1

Iori_kei

Joker hit me right at the core. Especially when you have to smile when all you want to do is cry.
          
          I had an awful week. Work was overwhelming and I couldn't sleep because my brain wouldn't stop thinking about work. I was just beyond depressed for the whole week. 
          
          I admit I wasn't a good company when depression hits and I tend to get very quiet. Unfortunately, I had to work closely with a talkative colleague and she just wouldn't stop asking me questions when all I wanted was to clam up. So I ended up giving one-word responses so I wouldn't come off as rude. Turned out, I was still rude alright. 
          
          I overheard her telling my other colleagues about our stiff conversations behind my back, literally, because my seat faces the wall. They thought I had the music turned on because I was wearing my earphones. Too bad I wasn't listening to anything, I just didn't want people to start chatting with me while I was rushing  with my work. Their comments were dismissive and careless. 
          
          Was I wrong to feel sad? Does being an adult means I need to smile even if I feel shitty? That I need to put on my happy face for the sake of others? 

Iori_kei

@SarahSokol5 I honestly wished I had really cranked up the volume so that I didn't overhear their conversation. Sometimes, oblivion is bliss. 
            
            I don't think I can treat them the same way anymore. I noticed that my behaviour had changed from being friendly to just courteous today at work. It really sucks because we were really tight back then. Now, I'm just dreading to go to work.
            
            Anyways, thank you for listening and backing me up ❤. I feel less shitty already
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Iori_kei

@Loonabish18 Thank you for listening to my rant. It's so hard not to care about others opinions. Sometimes I feel like having no friends is better than having some. At least I don't have to care about what they think. 
            
            I hope you're feeling better too ❤.
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SarahSokol5

@Iori_kei Not at all. I don't think you have an obligation to show the rest of the world anything. Really what it comes down to is... Do their opinions actually matter to you? If not, then screw them, feel what you need to feel and do what you need to do. If their opinions do matter - express yourself as you need to, and then when you feel better, go back and apologize. Just explain that you were having a bad day, and you hope you didn't come across as rude, and it was nothing to do with her. 
            
            Most of the time people are just thinking about themselves anyway, and they don't consider your perspective. If they're worth getting to know, and they're worth keeping a good opinion, then they're worth apologizing to, even if what they said was petty and hurt your feelings. 
            
            All that being said - they sound like gossippy backstabbin bitches anyway ;D just crank up the headphones next time and live free of small minds hehe.
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